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Danny Fenton ([personal profile] schrodingersghost) wrote in [community profile] paradisa2013-06-12 08:21 pm
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[It had been a rough month for Danny. Actually make that a rough couple of years. A rough life.

Just... the last month had reached new depths of misery for him. It wasn't enough that the castle had made keeping his secret identity nearly impossible by taking away his ability to lie. It wasn't enough that he'd been trapped here for months going stir crazy with no ghosts to fight.

No, on top of all that he just had to gain all these new nightmares courtesy of the Event Horizon. He had to deal with memories of actually being tortured. Not just the nightmares he'd always had of being dissected.  This was worse, because it had come so close to happening for real.  And some part of his mind had thought his parents would approve of it.

How did you deal with something like that?

Danny had tried. Oh, he had tried. He'd stopped sleeping. He'd picked fights and blasted trees with ice and ecto energy until he couldn't stand up any more. But nothing helped.

And after a few weeks of this?  Danny just couldn't bring himself to care any more. He was exhausted, and he was so tired of being angry all the time.  He was tired of being scared. He was tired of people telling him that he had nothing to worry about.

He just wanted all of it to be over.

And so he finally grabs his journal and dictates a rambling and only slightly coherent challenge, the sort of announcement that could only be made while under the influence of sleep deprivation and complete emotional exhaustion.]


You know what? I don't care any more. All the people going on about how nice and understanding everyone in this castle is about people with freakish powers? Fine. You win. The castle and its stupid no lies curse and its thing against secret identities wins.

And when someone shows up to drag me off for lots and lots and painful experiments, maybe I won't even say I told you so.

I'll just say it right now.  I'm a ghost!  Happy?  I'll say it again. Ghost, ghost, ghost, ghost, GHOST! And I'm human. And no I don't know how it works, so don't even ask.

[And with that he trails off into mutterings too soft for the journal to pick up.]



mal_addict: (May I Suck Of Water Pure)

[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-13 07:35 pm (UTC)(link)
...

Do we feel better after that outburst?
mal_addict: (Sweet Polly Oliver)

[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-14 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
Is that even a problem for a ghost?

Possibly. And incidentally, I kind of already guessed. What with the asking about how people felt about ghosts in my world and all.
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-14 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
...Wait. I'm confused. Are you a human or a ghost or...both?

That's your loss, I take it, and not some ridiculous moral code.
mal_addict: (Let Me Be Covered)

[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-15 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
...Well, that must be interesting for you. So you're not quiet dead then?

No way of getting around it, telling little white lies?
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-15 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
I feel for you. It's never easy, trying to live with one foot in one world and the other in another.

Huh. The castle is a fickle bitch.
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-16 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I have a certain fondness for them.

That's right.
mal_addict: (Let Me Be Covered)

[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-16 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Being a vampire? The same as it usual, really. Trying to be something else in order to not be slaughtered by an angry mob. All fun and games.
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-17 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, they have you from both sides? I assume that's thanks to your half and half nature?
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-17 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
That sounds about right. We black ribboners get much the same deal. Humans still think were going to rip their throats out and vampires not on the wagon think we're traitors for giving up blood. There's no way to win.
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[personal profile] mal_addict 2013-06-18 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
That's fine, losses are a pain and I tend to not be judgemental anyway.

Parents can be...difficult.