Ashley Magnus (
panicswitched) wrote in
paradisa2013-04-13 03:09 pm
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Capture 6
[ for those who haven't seen ashley in a few days -- which is most people, as she's been avoiding nearly everyone lately -- the fact that she's addressing the journals is likely a slight surprise. but fear not. her tantrum is only beginning. her voice is dripping with sarcasm here and those who know her well might be able to hear how her tone wavers. ]
Thanks, Castle. Really. You've outdone yourself with this one. It's beautiful, such a nice welcome back for me. Just when I think I might be okay trying to talk to someone, you have to remind me of things I'd rather not. Thanks, really. I owe you one.
If anyone needs me, I think I'll be hanging out somewhere else for the rest of the month. I'm done with these warm welcomes.
[ Filtered to Helen Magnus ]
[ she pauses for a while here, knowing she needs to do this, but unsure of how to even begin. ]
I'm not mad at you. For the record.
[ Filtered to Galadriel ]
...So about that game night. [ she owes galadriel an apology anyway. ]
Thanks, Castle. Really. You've outdone yourself with this one. It's beautiful, such a nice welcome back for me. Just when I think I might be okay trying to talk to someone, you have to remind me of things I'd rather not. Thanks, really. I owe you one.
If anyone needs me, I think I'll be hanging out somewhere else for the rest of the month. I'm done with these warm welcomes.
[ Filtered to Helen Magnus ]
[ she pauses for a while here, knowing she needs to do this, but unsure of how to even begin. ]
I'm not mad at you. For the record.
[ Filtered to Galadriel ]
...So about that game night. [ she owes galadriel an apology anyway. ]

Ashley Magnus
I love you, Ashley and I'm sorry for the way things have gone.
Ashley Magnus HOLY CRAP THANKS TABS AND BRAIN`
Helen Magnus
Don't, Mom. I'm not mad at you and I mean that. This isn't your fault.
[ pause. ]
I wanted to say all that to your face... but then the Castle did its thing just as she got back and she's not... really happy about letting anyone see her like this. still, if helen wants to, she'll go meet her. ]
James Watson | sfkjhsf ♥
[ because she's dragging him whether he likes it or not. ]
Ashley Magnus
[He's going, in fact he may have already plotted to drag her out with him.]
Ashley Magnus
James Watson
[ good. they're agreed at least. and that's as much of her saying "we need out of this stupid place" as she'll get at the moment. ]
Helen Magnus
Meet you by the front doors. And Mom... I have marks on me. Just so you know.
[ "don't say i didn't warn you." ]
Ashley Magnus
[And yes, yes it would. He understands this rather well.]
You know what it's like out there, yes?
Ashley Magnus ==> action
I do too, they are regrets I think from what I've heard.
[And she has the one across her abdomen for the child she has no given everything but a normal life to.]
Ashley
[He says it lightly, but he's hiding his upset too.]
James Watson
[ her voice is quiet for that, but the other... ]
You probably know more about it than I do.
[ cough up. she wants the details. ]
Giotto
[ that's all right. they can be in denial together. ]
Ashley Magnus
[He's pretty sure that covers it all.]
action
but in a few minutes, she'll be there. she is a mess; "marks" don't do them justice. she's got four long claw marks across her left bicep (the mirror of the ones she gave her mother during her last moments alive), a bloody stab wound on her stomach (where druitt stabbed her in the library), and red blood on her hands. no matter what she's done, nothing will cover them.
so she's ignoring them as much as she ignores the one on helen. ]
Hey.
action
And instantly folds her arms around you.] No way to greet your mother.
[Helen's hands area red with blood, but the marks over her eyes are curious.]
Ashley
[It couldn't come soon enough. He's going stir crazy and now this.]
James Watson
No abilities work? Nothing? [ no talons, no fangs, no teleportation to remind her? ] Sweet. I can work with that. [ she'll be normal. ]
Ashley Magnus
We have found other places there as well that were former castles, they also allowed some use of abilities. Not all of them or nearly as strong. [He got a massive headache.] But in general no, nothing works out there.
action
Hi, Mom.
[ she's just ignoring the marks. she doesn't want to know, doesn't want to think of all the things they both have to regret. it's not important, doesn't matter, can't matter. she's just focusing on burying her head against her mother's shoulder. ]
James Watson
[ because over the journals would not be a good idea. at least she isn't sure if there's a risk or not and well... of course, if he wants to see her now, all he has to do is ask. she's around. somewhere. ]
Still think that's a bonus, at least for me.
[ she'll keep an eye on him, though. ]
Giotto
[ with her family drama, she needs something to do. ]
Ashley
[And distraction with the fact he has a grandson, go!]
Giotto
[ if he's giotto's family, he must be good. ]
Ashley Magnus
[No, no it wouldn't. And well he might, later.]
You say that now. Though I'm not surprised you'd like it, it takes a bit of getting used to for myself.
Ashley
James Watson
I'm not complaining. It's been a long time. [ a long time since she was normal. ]
Ashley Magnus
action
That's my girl.
Giotto
James Watson
[ she's done things like that and could learn quickly anyway. ]
Is that a required skill?
action
I'm sorry, Mom.
[ about storming out, about yelling, about the castle, everything. ]
[dictated]
[granted, she's been devoid of stains herself so far, but she still feels the sentiment-- the castle is prone to getting very, very intrusive]
action
You don't have to be, you have good instincts, you react because of how you feel about things. I couldn't ask for anything different in you.
[dictated]
action
Served me well, up until the point I needed it most.
[ yeah she blames herself for everything cabal. sob. ]
Action forever
She lost so much on that trip. She lost a man she loved and Ashely lost even more, the innocence of her heart and soul were tainted by the Cabal, Helen would take that guilt to her grave many years from now.]
It never failed you, they used it against you, that is how the devil works. Feeding every lie the grain of truth that makes it flower for them.
no subject
even so, she just nodded and fell silent for a moment, her head ducking so she could watch where she was placing her feet and not the world around her. the same could be said of these "losses," especially the ones involving memories. she's hoping that's what happened with her mother the other night and not something else. ]
Maybe. Guess that means we all have to stick together, huh? No matter what happens or what we find out. [ she swallows hard, letting her words drop off. she'd come to apologize for reacting the way she had, but now that she's here, she's not so sure she wants to have this conversation. she's here with her mom. that's enough for her for now. ]
no subject
No matter what else I might ever find out, you are the most important thing in my life. This place likes to play tricks and make people misremember or lose things, but if I have you nothing else matters.
I understand if you need time, I'm fairly certain I do as well. But I will be here, no questions asked. I will always be here.
no subject
[ even if helen couldn't always see her, she would always be there. a part of her would never leave her mother. ]
I think I already took most of the time I need, but... spending a little more in town might not be a bad idea. I just... I didn't want you to think I was avoiding you.
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... Before I came here.