paradisa | 17. There, I just said it/I'm scared you'll forget about me

Kaylee Frye

You're not even here, Kaylee, and I am not sure you will ever get to read this, but... seeing that some of the castle's residents got to meet their children, if only for a week, made me ache for you in a way I have not since I first saw Dr. Keller and realized that she wasn't you. It made me long deeply for you, and for the life I realized I want to share with you. The life that I thought I had to give up for my sister's sake, the life I believed I actually had a chance at claiming before I was brought here.

I want to be with you. I want to hold you and kiss you and laugh with you and make love with you and even argue and weather the rough patches- because it will be normal. I want to settle down with you and marry you and maybe even some day meet our child.

Paradisa has robbed me of that, even aside from the memories it has already robbed.

I love you, Kaywinnit Lee Frye. From the bottom of my heart, with every fiber of it, and I was a damned fool to not tell you that sooner.

Love always,
Simon

It is strange how one can be reminded so much of home even if they are not directly involved in what is happening. I did not have a child myself, and yet... it made me miss home and those I left there. But it also brought back some good memories. I hope that those of you who did have a child were able to enjoy their presence, even if it was sometimes hard to navigate.