[It's been a long time since she even came close to putting herself under the Fireflies banner, and a longer time still since she said it proudly. She's far from an idealistic teenager, but adulthood had hit her too fast, too hard. Unlike Joel's childhood slowly burning away as he raised Tommy himself, Tess had gotten a rude awakening at nineteen and there was no chance to go back, even if she liked to think about it sometimes.
She used to think about it a lot, especially in those days where it seemed infection was a passing crisis, something that would eventually fizzle out without much fanfare. Like the war in Afghanistan, or the obsession with global warming, or the latest indigenous "superfood" fad. Infection was supposed to go away.
And sure, she had thought about it less and less over the years, but it was always at the back of her mind, haunting her. She knew her teenaged self would loathe what she had become, someone who profited off of all the suffering and even smiled from time to time doing it.
Joel didn't understand that. Joel had never fallen in with the Fireflies, and sometimes Tess imagined him too pessimistic to ever consider the future. Too ground up by suffering to strive for a life all that far beyond it. Too in love with his own demons –– god knows Tess loathes hers.
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She used to think about it a lot, especially in those days where it seemed infection was a passing crisis, something that would eventually fizzle out without much fanfare. Like the war in Afghanistan, or the obsession with global warming, or the latest indigenous "superfood" fad. Infection was supposed to go away.
And sure, she had thought about it less and less over the years, but it was always at the back of her mind, haunting her. She knew her teenaged self would loathe what she had become, someone who profited off of all the suffering and even smiled from time to time doing it.
Joel didn't understand that. Joel had never fallen in with the Fireflies, and sometimes Tess imagined him too pessimistic to ever consider the future. Too ground up by suffering to strive for a life all that far beyond it. Too in love with his own demons –– god knows Tess loathes hers.
Is there even a case to make?]
Why isn't a chance better than nothing at all?