[and just like that, the floor drops out from under him. a trip. the expedition. with the Doctor. he's always wanted one, but at the same time, he'd always known he wasn't practically capable. the last time he'd even tried was something still within the powered zone, and not even far from the castle grounds, but into the caverns that Slenderman had left behind, a simple post-catastrophe investigation. even then, he had almost gotten hurt and had to rely on others to help him.
it had opened his eyes, made him realize that he was more help staying where he was safe, that people had enough trouble looking after themselves. he knew how much of a liability he could be.
and then he'd started learning to defend himself, taking lessons in nonlethal weapons from Zelos, gotten decent enough with the staff he'd been given by his tutor for Christmas ... and he'd proven he could hold his own at least marginally when they'd been dumped in the middle of all those damn dinosaurs. the initial panic he felt, the rush of guilt that he'd always felt at having to decline for his friends' sake and out of fear ...
... it wasn't lasting as long as it usually did. his fear for the others out there - especially since Nancy might be out there, and he considered her a friend - was outweighing all of that, for the first time. even so ...]
Maybe. I ... I want to. But I won't go without Nora. I need to talk to her, first.
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it had opened his eyes, made him realize that he was more help staying where he was safe, that people had enough trouble looking after themselves. he knew how much of a liability he could be.
and then he'd started learning to defend himself, taking lessons in nonlethal weapons from Zelos, gotten decent enough with the staff he'd been given by his tutor for Christmas ... and he'd proven he could hold his own at least marginally when they'd been dumped in the middle of all those damn dinosaurs. the initial panic he felt, the rush of guilt that he'd always felt at having to decline for his friends' sake and out of fear ...
... it wasn't lasting as long as it usually did. his fear for the others out there - especially since Nancy might be out there, and he considered her a friend - was outweighing all of that, for the first time. even so ...]
Maybe. I ... I want to. But I won't go without Nora. I need to talk to her, first.