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paradisa2013-10-27 09:18 am
gottaknockhard) wrote in paradisa2013-10-27 09:18 am
Entry tags:
75; action/dictated
[Sitting on the castle steps, with a pile of discarded cigarettes at his feet, Spike idly watches anyone who happens to slip out of its doors. His shoulder still causes him pain, slumped and neglected aside from a patch job that he did himself, so he smokes with the opposite hand.
It's a lazy way of looking for someone.
But it's still more effort than simply opening the journal, which probably demonstrates that the whole 'looking for someone' thing is a rouse. The truth is, he forced himself to stop looking the moment it occurred to him that he was losing his mind over something he didn't understand. If he can't apologize, he can at least quit obsessing over it.]
I thought he was onto something. [He pauses, reflecting over himself.] If it really is a cycle, maybe I'll catch it the next time around.
[-- Just when he'd decided not to, he was dictating vaguely into the journal, like a bad habit he couldn't quit. He starts to set up filters, which is most likely the decent thing to do after his behavior, and instead sets the open journal down beside him simply because it's too awkward to juggle everything one-handed. The best he can manage is an invitation.]
It's a lazy way of looking for someone.
But it's still more effort than simply opening the journal, which probably demonstrates that the whole 'looking for someone' thing is a rouse. The truth is, he forced himself to stop looking the moment it occurred to him that he was losing his mind over something he didn't understand. If he can't apologize, he can at least quit obsessing over it.]
I thought he was onto something. [He pauses, reflecting over himself.] If it really is a cycle, maybe I'll catch it the next time around.
[-- Just when he'd decided not to, he was dictating vaguely into the journal, like a bad habit he couldn't quit. He starts to set up filters, which is most likely the decent thing to do after his behavior, and instead sets the open journal down beside him simply because it's too awkward to juggle everything one-handed. The best he can manage is an invitation.]