[third time around is much easier, Adachi's noticed. He's used to his daughter by now, although he's noticed that while she's still very high energy, it's a lot more contained than it used to be, and while her interests are still mostly the same, she can take a lot more entertainment in more subdued activities, like drawing or reading. So for now they're doing their own thing, nestled close together on the hotel lawn, Mayoko reading a detective book for children and Adachi looking through his journal for what feels like the first time in forever (an ongoing occurrence he's realized)
He feels like he should say something, but he's not really sure what he can say anymore. There's been a weird feeling in him lately, one he can't describe. It's almost a dreading feeling, as if time may soon be up for him.
He's not sure if this is something to discuss with Mayoko right there but for what it's worth she is pretty mature for her age and already familiar with murder mysteries so it might not be too bad.
So get yourself ready folks, it's time for Adachi Has Deep Thoughts About Society And The World More Than He Ever Lets On: Existentialism Crisis Edition!]
I know there's a lot of people who want to just go home but do you ever... get a little scared thinking about that? And I don't mean because of the way your home is or whatever but I mean like...
Say you've been here a long time. Let's say... 2 years. Long enough that you've had time to grow and change and you're not the same man- or woman I guess, that you were when you first came here.
Do you ever... stop and think about how... going back home means everything about who you are right now is basically like... erased?
Isn't that a little scary, when you really think about it? It's like the person you are right now just... dies. You no longer exist. The you that you were back then isn't who you are now. It isn't quite the same.
I used to think I wouldn't care if I went home. "Welp, this dream was nice and all but it's time to go back to reality!" But now... hmm. I don't know anymore.
All the things you've seen, all the people you've met... they...[he trails off and finally Mayoko notices the blank look on his face as she looks up from her book]"Papa? Are you okay?"
Haha... Yeah, I'm fine. [then he gets a teasing, playful tone to his voice]
Daddy was just thinking about how much he wishes he could stay with you forever, even when you're all big and he has to chase the icky boys away!!"Mayoko wants that too! Mayoko wants to always be with papa AND mama!"[THERE IS PROBABLY SOME HUGGING GOING ON RIGHT NOW judging by the brief silence]
Anyway sorry, I rambled on about pointless things with that my big mouth of mine again... just ignore all of it, okay? And um... if anyone would like to meet or play with Mayoko, we're sitting outside the hotel today. You're welcome to come... I assume she won't be here long...[later though, when Mayoko is occupied again, Adachi scribbles something down on a private filter.]( Castle )