paradisa | there are places I remember

[To Paradisa]

A whole month, really? You felt it that necessary, and through all of that, to boot? If I didn't know better, I'd think you were trying to actually protect me. But it wasn't about me, now, was it. You wanted to see their reactions, to make them hurt, to think I'd gone and didn't remember them, and wouldn't. Quite cruel of you, and in terribly poor form. Especially to York, don't you think you've done enough to him lately?

I've friends to apologize to, but don't you think we're done here. Not for a moment.

... Even if you did reset the old girl's theme on me.

[/Paradisa]

Ah, hello? Everyone? ... I'm afraid I have a bit of an odd apology to make. It seems I've been under a singular loss for the past month or so, and a cruel one: I'd lost all my memories of each and every one of you, as though I'd been sent home and brought back. Having lost and regained friends myself, I know how difficult it must have been for those of you who spoke to me, so - I'd like to make it up to you all somehow. Individually. However you like.

[and then he thinks of Crowley. and River. but mostly Crowley.] Within reason, of course. ... Also, I think I heard something about an upcoming expedition, amidst all the clamor?

I'll offer my TARDIS as transportation to the Dead Zone, but ... well, I'm admittedly on the fence as to whether or not to actually accompany everyone. Not sure if I'd be better served holding down the proverbial fort, now that it's just the one of me here.

[with that, he'll be ... tending to the plants in his room around the TARDIS if anyone decides to drop in!]

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[That was a loss?

That was just a loss?

York had convinced himself the Doctor actually had gone home and come back--possibly, admittedly, because that week had been just that shitty for him. Not to mention that it had been far more than a single week, like most losses.]

You're--you remember? Everything?

I'm so, so sorry, York.

... But, yes. I do.

I thought you were gone.

[Because the castle really does hate him that much sometimes. He knows it's not the Doctor's fault, any more than Carolina acting like she is right now isn't her fault.

But that doesn't make it any easier on the others who are affected.]

[he sighs, closing his eyes. the moment he remembered everything, York was the first one he thought of. his oldest friend here, and his dearest, now. the one who'd had the most to lose from it - and he remembered the anger, the hurt he'd shown in the TARDIS. how Delta had done most of the talking. he's not even sure how to begin apologizing, but - he knows he's got to try. he owes him far more than that, for so much]

... I suppose, in a way, I was. It's like ... waking up from a dream of my own past, where ... details got altered a bit. So odd, to have memories of being taught everything over again. Like I'm a film negative, printed twice over. But that's enough about me.

Are you alright?

[He almost snaps back something like "I'm surviving, if that's what you mean", but he knows that isn't what the Doctor means. Of course it's not. He wants to know if York's dealing with it in a healthy manner, if things are going his way.]

Kat and Guilmon came back, but that's about the only good thing that's happened to me lately.

[That's a no.]

The castle seems to be all about fresh new mind games lately.

We'll miss you, if you don't come. But I'm glad you're... back, so to speak.

[There's a slow exhale before she speaks. She had done her upmost not to show it (of course), but she had been affected by his loss. He was something she had come to rely on as a constant- she hadn't realized how much. And then to have more than a few friends and acquaintances leave so soon afterwards... it's been a rough month or so, no matter how she tried to deny it.]

I am so very glad to have you back, my friend.

So it was head trauma. Castle-induced head trauma, sure. But still head trauma.

Still, welcome back?

Reason is a boring thing, Vegetable Boy. [And YOU'RE boring stomping on his fun :|]

I wondered why you were so quiet....

[She's just relieved he hasn't gone home for real. He's a good friend to her]

There's an expedition that Aradia is putting together. Naturally, I've already signed myself up.

[River could never miss out on an adventure like this!]

I thought there was something missing among the voices that greeted me when I woke up. Glad it's finally let you come back to yourself.

Hey! I'm glad to hear you didn't really go home. I was hoping it was a loss.

Just when I thought things wouldn't get any worse.

Forgetting can be nice.

That's extreme amnesia.

[!!!! Like many, she'd just assumed he'd gone and come back, too. And with Eleven gone, that had been ... that was just a super bad week for her. So yeah, she does find her heart lifting to hear he's back to normal. Even so, it takes her a little while to figure out how to reply, but there's a smile in her voice when she does.]

i ought to smack you one Doctor

[He's going to need a little time to process this, but overall?]

I'm glad it was just a loss.

[that is a very, very obvious no. so much so that he doesn't even have the heart to be excited about the fact that he knows Kat's back...]

What can I do to help...?

Thank you, Lois. ... Though, now you've got me curious. What else has it been doing that's, well ... abnormal, so to speak? Or at the very least, unheard of before now ...?

And I'm glad to be back to myself, as it were. From the sounds of things, it was rather terrible timing.

Yes, but hardly a concussion. ... Thank you, though. How've you been? Please, do tell me you've at least left that tower of yours once. And our little outing to the camp doesn't count.

I was talking about the influx of people who never really 'went home'. And the whole 'confirmation that the castle's devouring our souls' thing.

Only sometimes, Crowley. [no he's not. he's just conscientious.] How've you been?

Ah, yes, I heard about it. Still on the fence about it myself, as I said.

When you woke up? ... Somehow, I've a terrible, sinking feeling that you don't just mean from a nap.

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