[002] but oh my love don't forsake me;

[commandsthewind]

[Filtered as far away from England/Arthur Kirkland as she can make it.]

[It's all written because she doesn't trust her voice so much, because really nothing shakes her... except this. This is a thing she has no word for. Her usual neat and precise hand writing is a hastily mess.]

Forgive me if this sounds like lunacy, and troubling those here with such a thing, but I have tried to reason this out and I cannot seem too... find an answer by myself. I'm at my wits end with it.

Has anyone had someone appear that... knows them. I understand my own title goes before me, and that many of you know me purely through text and later writings. You can never claim to know me personally. I mean... has someone ever appeared to you, and known you so completely. Spoken of things that you will never speak of to another, claimed things that are... well, your secrets in point of fact. Only you have never seen this person, you have no memory of them. Not a single thing. From their name to their title. 

I know literally nothing of this man. And what he claims otherwise is... he claims to be my country. My England. I cannot fathom such a thing lest it is a trick. It would be a sick one at the very least, given that I am myself married to my country, to give me a husband when I have neither need nor want of one. 

Does anyone at all know anything of this? Anything at all. I have been told that people do have their memories removed.

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[ruined_jaw]

Another one of those, huh? There was some bloke a few months back who claimed to be Italy.

It's entirely possibly that he's from some world where the countries of the world have physical bodies. I know it doesn't make sense, but such is the way of things here, as I'm sure you've noticed.

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[save_the_souls]

...Oh no, not this again. [FLASH BACKING TO AMERICA]

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[kalinda]

That's strange. Admittedly. [A sigh, a bit of a pause.] But I am sure if talking ponies and large red men exist, then why not anthropomorphisms of countries?

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[20thcentury]

I've never heard of someone actually being the personification of a country, but similar things happen where I'm from. Personifications of ideas made flesh.

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[hedonic]

That sounds like quite the elaborate attempt to drag you beneath the sheets. A stalker, perhaps?

[commandsthewind]

I find that even harder to be believe. Italy is less unified then England was during the wars.

That brings me no comfort, I'm afraid. For my country to be one man to which I am accountable to.

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[commandsthewind]

What do you mean 'not again'?

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[commandsthewind]

.... When put like that, I suppose you are right. But that any man should know so much of me...

I have done much, killed enough to make me ill, to make sure no man has such a claim.

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[commandsthewind]

... This is common then? Personifications like...

[pause, she's actually trying to think of anything that she knows that is similar.] As in the pagans believe the Zeus was the God of Thunder, and Athena the Goddess of Wisdom?

[commandsthewind]

[You get a prize. She hadn't actually though of that yet. Great.]

There are younger, prettier and far more idiotic women to try that on. I have been queen far too long for that sort of nonsense.

[kalinda]

My condolences. [A breath.] There are many who know how to get inside your head around here. If anything, one's secrets are what the castle itself enjoys playing with.

[commandsthewind]

There is nothing to be sorry for. I made my bed, it is my duty.

So I have heard... [there's a pause in her writing.] I am ill suited to being any one's toy. It's not a blow my pride walks off very well.

[kalinda]

We're one and the same then, in that regard. This place has taken a lot more from me than I would have liked-- and I'm sure this is only the beginning.

[hedonic]

Oh, a queen is it? [ Guess that explains the weird 'married to country' commentary. But a queen without a king is something she's familiar with and can definitely get behind. ]

Well than all the more reason that a man would try to take advantage of it. Even when not in her own country, a proper queen commands power and grace wherever she walks. Which is exactly why you ought to teach such a brazen fool a lesson.

I assume none from your court are here with you? Or were you lucky enough to bring friends?

[commandsthewind]

So it would seem. I guess there is nothing but to weather such things. Storms come and go after all. [and storms had saved her, she would never forget that.]

[kalinda]

[There's a short, subdued chuckle at that.] You're taking this a lot better than most.

[commandsthewind]

It is. Whose had every King of Europe try to court her. Really, there have better wooing's of ladies.

[she's not sure about teaching a lesson, and the irony was this Arthur Kirkland was the only one to kneel before her and swear into her service as they did in court.]

Perhaps so. I cannot say for sure.

None, not a single advisor to tell me what to do, or lady to attend to me.

[commandsthewind]

... I just came from three months of war that I had not a hope to win, and yet did. I can honestly say I have been through worse. And he did not pull a gun on me.

It might of been easier if he had done that, I would at least know what to make of that.

[kalinda]

Wow. [You can tell by her tone that's a lot less sarcastic than she'd usually say it.] You've got one hell of a backstory. I'd say you're more than prepared to face whatever comes your way around here.

[hedonic]

How unfortunate. You must be lonely.

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[the_effect_she_has]

[Oh, well dang. Katniss's lips press together.]

Yes - probably not as much as a Queen - but I thought that was the cost of being a celebrity. People knowing things about your life that you'd rather not know about yourself.

[Her lips pressed even further together.] You ... going to be okay? Need to have this guy, you know, kept away?

[commandsthewind]

Not really. [she honestly didn't think so. She's a queen, these things come with the territory.

She hardly did what say... Henry V did. Or William I.] I plan to face every worst possible outcome every day. It's what being queen means. To trust nothing and no one. Neither my food, nor my drink, nor my clothes. Compared that?

... This place is merciful for it's lack of politics.

[commandsthewind]

It's quiet not being at court. If that is what you mean.

[that's as far as she's going to admit to being lonely. That meant human weakness. Hell froze over first.]

[hedonic]

The pleasure of another lady's company is an often undervalued stress reliever. Although I can't really say I ever participated in the noble court life, I am familiar with working intimately for a queen and her subjects.

But, then, whims are whims.

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[commandsthewind]

... This is slightly different to being a celebrity, Katniss. I... did not do this for pleasure and wealth. The secrets they have spoken of... they are secrets of such a personal nature, and a state nature as well. No one but my... closest would ever know such things.

[... that reply, for whatever reason, warmed her more then she could possibly say.] I think I shall be fine. He's... well, upon seeing me he knelt and called me by my title, recited poetry at me no less. I do not think I shall need to worry on that account.

It's less being known. People here's reactions are odd enough, but no different to home. It's that... someone could of taken the thought of someone so important from me.