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Vongola XX -- Dictated/Action for Casa de Guts

[Tsuna awakes in his bed with a small start and promptly sits up. He blinks blearily, looking toward the window, lifting an arm to block the light when it hits his eyes.]

Ah... [He blinks then, and looks down at his blanket, recalling what had happened to him for what had seemed to be the past few days. But he was back in his room at the house, and in his pajamas, so...]

What a strange dream. [He then gets out of bed and yawns and stretches, heading to the bathroom to brush his teeth. He opens the door, and...

There's a pair of white rabbit ears popping innocently out of his hair.]

Heehh!? [There's a thud as Tsuna falls over.] Rabbit ears?

[And then he cautiously raises a hand and tugs on one to make sure Reborn wasn't playing a dirty trick on him or something. He can feel a sensation from the tug, and it doesn't come off.]

N-no way! They're real?! --ah, my feet! [And now he's noticing that they're all dirtied, and a little cut and sore, too. The cogs are turning in his head.]

Wait... then...

[He pales a bit.]

All of that actually happened?!

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Yes, it did. [He doesn't elaborate, since if he did, Tsuna would be able to figure out who he was.]

[Would he, though? Don't overestimate him, Giotto.]

Ah, well... it's good to be back in our right minds, isn't it? Even if I did end up getting a... "souvenir"...

Most definitely. [A pause in the writing.] The rabbit ears?

Y-yeah.

[A smile, though he can't see it. Is he so worried about what people will think...?] I am sure that you look perfectly fine with them, and that they will disappear soon otherwise.

Eheh, they look pretty silly, actually. [But the comforting words are nice, not something he hears often.] ...but, thank you anyways.

And yet I'm sure someone will find them cute. People do tend to find rabbits cute, do they not? [Is he gently poking fun at him? Maybe.]

[Something of a strangled noise, then, as he tugs a his ears down a bit.] N-not cute!

[A laugh, over the journal, that Giotto doesn't even bother to stifle.] Then I shall take your word for it.

H-hey, I'm serious!

[But he doesn't get as flustered as he usually would. That laugh didn't sound spiteful, it sounded deep, warm. Actually, it was kind of nice, knowing he'd made this guy feel good enough to laugh. It's... rather infectious, and Tsuna can't help but give a soft laugh himself.]

I never said I didn't believe you were serious. [But he had been thinking it, and it still makes Giotto smile to hear Tsuna laugh.]

...But, truly, there is nothing wrong with having rabbit ears.

I bet you were thinking it, though! [Caught you, Cielo-san!]

[At the second statement, he gives a little smile and runs his hand through his hair.] ...no, I guess not. [A pause.] Thanks, Cielo-san. You actually made me feel a lot better.

...Perhaps. [Yes, you did.]

And I am glad, though I hardly said anything to reassure you.

Well, you told me that I look fine with them, and that there's nothing wrong with them. That's more than anyone else has done for me.

Well, of course there is nothing wrong with them. They are just rabbit ears. Having rabbit ears doesn't change who you are.

...At least, it shouldn't.

Either way.

[He smiles.]

You're a really nice guy, Cielo-san. I... find it hard to believe that I would panic about talking to someone like you.

[He's flushing at the compliment, and is glad that Tsuna can't see him.] Well, you have. And you still would. Names are powerful things.

[He knows that better than anyone.]

[There's a pause.]

... I already have?

[uh oh]

Yes, you have. [...Oh dear. Has he finally figured it out?]

[He frowns at the page and thinks. Had he really had a reaction to some person that could actually be considered panicking?

... he remembers, with Ino. How he'd tried to pull away from her, how she had to drag him into a hug and pet him to stop him from trembling.

Because of...

Giotto.

There's a little noise of his breath hitching then. His mind is racing, but no, no, now it all made terrible, awful sense. How he'd said he was from Italy, how he'd said he might be considered a criminal...

But he has to make sure. And his voice is unreasonably calm and level when he says the name.]

Giotto.

[Giotto pauses at his name said so calmly, almost like the calm before the storm. The moment before Tsuna panicked and slammed the journal on him. But he hadn't yet, and maybe that meant something. He almost writes back, but what is the point? Tsuna already knew about him. So he sighs and says:]

There's no point in trying to hide it now, is there?

[He hears that sigh, and his breath catches at the familiar voice, heart fluttering. But those words with that sigh-- they make Tsuna's stomach churn. It was like Giotto was sad for him to have finally figured out, like he was really expecting Tsuna to panic and stop talking to him altogether.

... had he really, honestly enjoyed talking to him so much?

And then there's a twist in his gut and he winces, feels like this is a terrible betrayal-- but not on Giotto's side, on his. Because Giotto didn't know who he truly was, if he did and he knew what a coward Tsuna was, he'd be disappointed, and would never want to speak to him again.

... funny, that's pretty much the situation that Tsuna's put them in anyway. Not talking to each other. But at least this way, he could pretend Giotto wasn't disappointed in him.

And now he feels caught, because damnit, he was right, he was panicking and he wanted to run, to not have to deal with this.

But at the same time, he felt obligated to stay. Because he said he wouldn't run, that he wouldn't stop talking to him, and he'd honestly, genuinely enjoyed their conversations, and oh god he has so many conflicting feelings right now that they just kind of form themselves into a half choked out word, in some sort of poor compromise of his opposing desires:]

Why?

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[Why, indeed? Giotto wasn't exactly sure himself. He knew why he had started this in the first place, just to wish Tsuna a Merry Christmas and accepts his thanks for the scarf. But why had he kept up with it?

There was really only one answer.] I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas. But you just kept talking to me, Tsuna. [The way he says it is fond, though. He doesn't mind talking to Tsuna at all.

But... This isn't actually his decision, is it?] You can shut the journal, if you wish. And I will never talk to you again.

[Tsuna thinks for sure that the sound of Giotto's voice alone is making his blood pressure spike, it's that smooth tone that's making his heart race, and he's having trouble listening to the words.

You can shut the journal, if you wish. And I will never talk to you again.

The sound of his panicked breathing can be heard before he just does that, slamming the journal shut and tossing it across his room. It smacks soundly against the wall and falls to the ground.

He stares at it for a moment, shaking, before he quickly goes to put on his winter clothes, because he needs to get outside even if it is cold, needs the chilly air to clear his mind because he's just had a little too much pressure in the past couple of days, and he won't be able to handle it otherwise.

...he'll get back to Giotto.

Maybe.]

Edited 2013-01-21 05:58 (UTC)

[He listened, to the few panicked, quick breaths and then a bang. What...?] ...Ah. [Tsuna had slammed the journal on him.

A small, sad smile. What had he truly expected? For a few moments, he had allowed himself to hope that maybe... But it was never to be.

How ironic. He had family here, true blood family, and they wanted nothing to do with him again. He supposed this is what he got for being who he was, for doing what he had done.

He sighed, and wrong across the page, words that Tsuna would probably find later:] I'm sorry for everything.

[And with that, he shuts the journal.]

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Vongola XX -- Dictated/Action for Casa de Guts

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