paradisa | xix. dictated, action

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xix. dictated, action

Lana
How about an early morning ride?

Micheletto
You will help me with my crates. [ Because packing is tough. ]

Stephanie
Tell me if you mean to visit, even if not to see me. He would not find unexpected guests so pleasant.

What does it mean when the castle gave some no glimpse of old age?

[ Lucrezia is on her knees in the church in town, hands counting through her white rosary and reciting her prayers under her breath. She keeps her hood over her head.

It might seem foolish to believe that saying something over and over again gives it greater weight, or that time and voice can buy penance, but she feels she must at least-- try. She isn't praying for her own soul, she wonders if she would ever. But she loses count of how many times she has said the Ave Maria, and stands to go. ]

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I would still hear your thoughts.

On which matter?

You told me once men would only hurt me.

I do not think I said "only" hurt you.

What else could they do?

They can protect you. They can bring you happiness... they can give you pleasure. They can do all at once, or only some of them.

But my point from then remains, piccina. You are in a world where you have no obligations to men, and the women here will defend your right to stray from their obligations. While you have this freedom in Paradisa, be wary of living with a man who may ask obligations of you.

[ It's a mystery why she still asks him for advice when she would doubt his intention for her family, but something tells her he wouldn't lie to her at least in this. Joshua's only demand is to never leave, but lovers always say so until the end. ]

Obligations are the domain of husbands.

Obligations are the domain of any man who feels he has something to gain by it, Lucrezia.

And some obligations are willingly accepted. Did you not grant the same to your lover?

Yes... but if my lover insisted an obligation I would not accept, I would leave her. Do you think Joshua would allow your refusal? I would know that he would respect an answer that is not "yes", piccina.

I refused him once already. Stephanie was the one who brought my message then, perhaps you should ask her.

Why did you send Stephanie?

Because Cesare would not let me meet him, and I could trust her.

Why would Cesare deny you a message to Joshua?

For the similar reason he dislikes my associating with you.

Cesare stands alone in his dislike of our association. Meanwhile, more people stand united in their dislike of your association of Joshua. As such, I would know his reasoning.

[ She sighs. ]

What good does it serve me to tell you? Would you rather not hear why I choose to stay with him, despite it?

I would hear that, too, if you would tell it.

Besides... the more I know, the easier it will be to convince Stephanie.

No. The more you know and believe what I wish you to, the easier. Is that not right?

Fair enough... but go on, then. Convince me.

[ She draws a deep breath, she isn't sure what she can say. Whatever she tried failed with Stephanie. ]

It troubles him when I am unhappy. The noise grows unbearably louder in his mind the more miserable I feel. But after my brother left, he came to me to see me through the night even so and laid no hand on me.

Do you understand what I am saying?

I do, but I do not see what makes him special. Would it please you to have the people who care about you suffer whenever you do, and refuse their own happiness for as long as it takes for you to reclaim yours?

Gentleness is a rare trait in a man.

I believe he can love me more than you do, or most others in this castle.

[He sighs.]

I would love you if it were permitted, Lucrezia. I am just not so sure of Joshua's gentleness, knowing the company he has kept.

I would not ask that of you now. [ That part is done, she has learned her lesson. ]

He would never hurt me if he loves me, you told me that once.

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