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[littlesoul]

[She's bloody, of course she's bloody. Her hands, her feet, her face. She's blood soaked and burning with a displeasure that says she is not pleased at all with this.]

[She writes the entry with the bloody dripping from her fingertips, so it may come out a it smeared but the sentiment is there all the same.]

Blood isn't scary, neither is ink, ash or old lipstick. Don't be afraid, don't let it win. We all ache inside for something, all mourn the mistakes we made.

But

[her hands start shaking a little as she thinks of her own regents, her own mistakes.]

But we are meant to learn. To grow out of what they taught us. We are more than our mistakes, we are triumphs and blood and love and hate and vengeance and passion.

\We are not defined b our stains.

Comments

Dictated

[kid_apocalypse]

That's...Peter said that too.

It's just...so hard. Having everything I regret, everything I hate about myself thrown back in my face.

Re: Dictated

[littlesoul]

Remember, remember that you survived. Remember, remember that you are alive.

\You have time to make up for it, time to change the world a little bit, in honor of your regrets.

Dictated

[kid_apocalypse]

[That makes him think. It was true. He'd survived, and he'd survived without giving in to his anger, becoming what everyone thought he would. He'd do his uncle proud.]

Thanks, I'll try.

Are you okay? My name's Evan. Evan Sabahnur.

[panicswitched]

[ well that's... a unique way of looking at it. and y'know, if her mistakes hadn't ended so horribly, she might be more willing to think like that too. ]

Nice way of putting it.

[littlesoul]

[Her mistakes didn't exactly end well either but she's trying.]

Everything is regret, everything is sadness and frustration. It's something to help get through the day.

[panicswitched]

Could be worse, I guess. At least there is a day here.

[ and she's not y'know, a pile of ash and energy somewhere. ]

[spongetastic]

River... you have blood, too? [his is all over by this point. He's dictating just so he won't get it on the journal]

[littlesoul]

Yes. ]She's stopped trying to wipe the blood away from her hands and her feet and just accepted it.] Blood happens.

[spongetastic]

It does happen... I'm sorry it has to happen to you.

[deltacain]

[That sounds like something someone back home might say...]

Nicely put.

[littlesoul]

[She smiles] I have my moments.

[deltacain]

Better than panicking about it... [This is said ruefully. He overreacted this morning.]

[pompous_today]

I am not going to allow this to unsettle me. After all, while the things on my body may be true, I will never not believe I wasn't doing the right thing.

[littlesoul]

That's all I can ask for.

[pompous_today]

I love you, meimei. No matter what blood is on either of our hands.

[kethedammit]

Yeah, but... [Arguing with crazy people's a good way to go mad. Mildmay sighs. Around his words, blood drips off his face, onto the page.] Good way've thinking about it, I guess.

[littlesoul]

Have to think of it some way. Have to deal with it in your own way. Not everyone can see clearly, I can't see clearly, but it's something, it's my light through the rain and the blood.

[theabjectauthor]

A very comforting sentiment, River, if not somewhat disconcertingly delivered. ... Thank you.

Other than this ... are you well? [he's been worried about her since the earthquake, but there were so many friends to check on, so many things to help with - and helping fight the fire at the outpost had torn him away longer than he would have liked]

[littlesoul]

Well enough. Enough to see clearly, to know what this is and not be scared.

[ichy]

No. We aren't.

Are you...'stained'?

[littlesoul]

Blood on my hands, blood in my feet. I touch the world and it goes red. It's what I was good at, what I am good at. I can make people bleed, I can remind them what it means to hurt.

[dictated]

[wantsiceland]

[there are a few pentaps on the journal as Shego thinks, before finally responding with audio]

Huh.

Pretty words, nice sentiment... but you forgot one thing, kiddo.

[littlesoul]

Oh?

Written

[jimfromit]

Wrong.

[littlesoul]

Only sometimes.