7th Abnormality - accidentally dictated - Backdated -Day 2 Event Horizon

[teratologist]

Wait!

Please, Ashely...

[Footsteps pound down metallic grid work, the sound clangs and echoes through the journal.]

I didn't mean it, I never would have let you go if I had known this would happen, you have to believe me.

[sudden stillness, a short gasp and a single word.]

...John?

[Sobbing and apologies continue. Begging forgiveness from Ashely for not being there, for not protecting her as she should have, for failing to be any sort of mother to her.

Pleading with John who continues to vanish, leaving no trace, no words, no reason just gone. She pleads with him to stay but her please go unanswered.

The sound of knees hitting that same grating, and this time the words are whispered with regret and between heaving sobs.]

I'm sorry James, so much I should have done..should have told you. I am so sorry my love.

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[spongetastic]

Helen... Helen. Is that you? Are you... no. No, she's gone. They're all gone. Nobody's left.

[teratologist]

Peter! Where..where are you? What do you mean they are all gone? I just saw her.. I saw all of them... they wouldn't let me apologize.

[spongetastic]

You're right. It's the only way I can save everyone. [talking to a hallucnation now, Helen]

[teratologist]

Peter? What is the only way?

[spongetastic]

The way to save everyone. To be the hero...

[teratologist]

How can you save everyone?

[spongetastic]

The-- no. I don't trust her. She lied about Nathan. She lies about everything.

[teratologist]

Who is lying Peter? Is someone there with you?

[spongetastic]

All of them... and no one. They come and go.

[teratologist]

Is John there? I mean James...is he with you?

[mal_addict]

...Helen?

Helen, what's going on over there?

[teratologist]

Everyone is leaving me.

[Softer, muffled and possibly angled away.]

James! Please..don't go!

[mal_addict]

Helen, James is on here, on the Lewis and Clark.

He's not going to leave you, none of us are. [Oh Gods, was it really as bad as she'd been hearing?]

[teratologist]

No..I just saw him. He was here.

Everyone is leaving, and it's all my fault.

[mal_addict]

He wasn't.

Look. I know a thing or two about hallucinations, okay? You have to fight the vicious little buggers or they'll latch on and never let go.

[teratologist]

Hallucinations?

Of course...that must be it but, I need to be sure.

[mal_addict]

That's the thing with hallucinations, it's a little hard to tell.

[teratologist]

Yes..I'm confused. You must be right but...

Maladict I think I am not alright.

[mal_addict]

Look, just...do your best to keep it together, we'll break through and get to you as soon as we can.

[unnaturalpause]

Helen? [He's confused, so confused, what is going on?]

[teratologist]

James.. I'm so sorry. Please, please I beg you to forgive me.

[unnaturalpause]

Forgive you for what? Helen, you haven't done anything. [Except tell him John was a saint, but details.]

[teratologist]

I let you die... I should have found a way, made a way. I could have done it if I had tried harder.

[unnaturalpause]

[Oh, that's a kick to the gut, but for now he soldiers on.] Helen, you had no choice. Blaming yourself won't help you or Ashley at the moment over there.

[teratologist]

Ashely.. I failed her as well. Everyone dies around me and I live on. I would have traded with you James, you deserved so much more than me.