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002 Violent Outbursts - dictated

So...I hear friends are turned into dolls, ages changes and all sorts of shit.

Has anybody ever looked for a pattern in this? Who comes, who goes, what happens to them while they are here? I am not a big believe in coincidence or random actions. I've seen too much about exactly how controlled the most random environments are.

Get back to me if you've noticed anything, I'll be checking stuff out for myself int he journal histories.

[Sunny]

How are you doing? Haven't heard much from you in recently so.. yeah. Just, you know, checking in.

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There is no true pattern, Texas. Speaking from extended experience.

I've experienced enough of the losses. Temporary selective amnesia to the point where I thought I was still the Director's loyal lap dog. Being stuck chained to someone I hated. Being turned into an AI on two occasions. Being turned into an alien. And the frog incident.

There are a lot of patterns ... not all of them are discernable.

I'm just going to bypass the dark humor on that one. But I have to ask about the frog incident.

Well aren't you being helpful, no offense Katniss but that is shit for an answer.

What is discernable?

What do you want me to tell you? I'm not a goddamned mathematician, Tex. I don't follow anything but tracks in the forest.

[She let out an angry huff.] If you die, you come back in two weeks. There were people here before us, and they went through similar things. There are places here that are in all of our worlds.

That's kinda exactly what I needed you to tell me. Not expecting you to be a scientist, but you're smart. Damn smart, and you see things most people miss. You have to or you never would have made it through what you did... I've been reading back in the journal so..yeah.

Does that two week thing work for everyone? Even the technically non-living or non human? Does dying and coming back do things to people? Wonder if the things brought here, places brought here have any special reason for being here.

It's what I do. I survive. There's no science in that. [Just blood, and desperation, and near madness.]

As far as I know. I've never seen it not work. Unless they're just ... gone. Most of the time, coming back from the dead will cost you. A memory, some important skill, all that.

And as far as Percy, I, and the others have been able to figure -- they're here because the people are here. Or have been here.

I was a small poisonous frog, and a cat tried to eat me.

To be honest, looking back at it all, I'm at the point where all but being an AI are more funny than terrible. And that wouldn't have been so bad except for Maine being in the castle.

You should be aware of how bad it can be. Any further questions? Just ask.

Ok, so it was a short story.

So being an AI was the worst huh? [Yeah she's going to try to not take that personally.] Maine is here? Or was here? [Way to go from Zero to ready to fight in 2 seconds.]

Yeah, I will. I get the feeling there is a lot I'm going to want to know.

It's what everyone should do. But things don't always work that way... and you'd be amazed just how much science can figure into things.

So coming back is like arriving but you..what remember things here? Rather than being a blank slate?

Fucking wonderful...[She laughed, it was loud and somewhat bitter.] We're in a goddamned terrarium. They've provided something from the home environment to make the pets happy.

[She snorted softly.] I find that science usually messes things up, is that what you mean?

Most of the time, yes. I ... went away, at some point, then came back again. Didn't remember anything that had happened here.

Pretty much. It's a giant cage, and we're still the rats.

Really was.

Maine was here. Been gone a while.

[Frowning] Let's just say Delta helped me for the most part... Had I been left alone otherwise, it would have been fine. Even if it was alarming, it wasn't that bad until I was caught. Maine and Sigma weren't limiting their hunt to true AIs, and managed to get my storage unit. I won't forget my time with them.

There isn't a pattern. [Her voice is still dark with anger.]

Thank you for your concern. I am doing well, all things considered. I've been staying with Mr. Snicket and doing a great deal of reading.

More like the people who want to use science for something personal generally mess it up. Science is like that bow of yours, perfect for helping you survive, providing the potential for a better life. But give it to someone with an agenda...now things get fucked.

Good to know, sorry you've gotten the old fuck around twice now.

Funny... I never did much care for being on a leash. [You can hear the grin there, someone is getting determined.]

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Carolina. [There was about the last voice she ever thought she'd hear, not that she'd excluded the woman but...still.] So maybe no one that we can see by looking too close, some algorithms you can only see when you look at the larger pattern.

Everything ok with lil Yorkie?

It's nothing, just...you went kinda quiet. I don't know this Snicket guy so..just checking in. [Didn't mean she cared or anything, just..you know..yeah.]

Delta's good like that.

Listen I kinda know what that whole thing feels like so if you need to ever..talk while shooting the crap out of stuff or hitting people? Let me know.

Him and York.

Appreciate the offer, Tex. But I handle things my way. [By avoiding them.]

Riiiiight because that is so fucking effective.

Excuse me?

You're a loner, it takes one to see one. Going it alone sucks, that's it really.

I'm not that bad. Not like Carolina.

I just don't want to burden others with my problems.

Carolina is farming her own particular breed of stubborn though. You're a good guy, people care about you. Don't think you have to shoulder everything on your own.

I want to help her. She won't let me.

If you think I'm a good guy? You don't know me very well anymore. I'm not the guy I was in Freelancer.

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