008 violent outbursts -accidental dictation-

[hatesgoodbyes]

[Nothing sounded for some time, soft scrapes of paper over paper as though pages were being turned. This went on for quite some time before soft muttering, indistinct reading and then-]

Son of a bitch!

[Tex has just found out about the previous version of her who had resided in the castle. York had prepared her for some of it, but there were details he could not have thought would get a reaction from her. When the castle had left his diary for her to get caught up she'd stumbled upon some of her more colorful past. Surprise, she reacted.]

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[goingrogue]

Language! There's children!

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[hatesgoodbyes]

What? Is fuck better?

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[goingrogue]

Oh no. My virgin ears! We need to keep this PG-13! Just think of the children you're subjecting to your naughty adult language!

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[hatesgoodbyes]

Then I guess maybe they shouldn't listen?

[Dictated]

[cant_breathe_no_heir]

Such lewd language...

What ever could bring you to utter such words.

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[hatesgoodbyes]

Ever find out about your past only it wasn't you, but a different you? And they did something you would never do..or probably never, with someone you never would..probably?

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[cant_breathe_no_heir]

...

Yes. Actually.

Only my ancestor was someone to surely look up to. Despite his problems.

Dictated

[hatesgoodbyes]

Ok this wasn't an ancestor, this was me. A different me than I am now, and they were here and they... Just no.

[whistles_the_blues]

A little upset are we?

[hatesgoodbyes]

Yeah, you could say that. Or you could say I'm fucking pissed off.

[whistles_the_blues]

That works too. Should I even bother asking what happened?

[hatesgoodbyes]

Finding out how much of a bitch I am I guess. Previous me here should have gotten a swift kick in the ass.

[whistles_the_blues]

Hm. Well all you can do is try to be different from your previous self. Since you can't actually kick her.

[hatesgoodbyes]

I already am, doesn't mean I am ok with what she did.

[whistles_the_blues]

Unfortunately there's not a whole lot you can do about that. So move on and don't make the same mistakes.

[hatesgoodbyes]

I don't think it's possible to make the same mistakes, she never should have made them in the first place. [Of course the idea that it wasn't a mistake was even worse to consider.]

[whistles_the_blues]

Well that's her problem, not yours. Seems like at the very least you're different enough people. Even if you look the same and go by the same name.

[hatesgoodbyes]

Yeah, guess that makes me Rotten Bitch 2.0

[whistles_the_blues]

Well at least it's an upgrade and not a downgrade.

[hatesgoodbyes]

Point. Still...she was a stupid bitch.

[whistles_the_blues]

It's fully possible she was, not going to argue that.

Tex

[originalcopy]

Everything alright?

[ok, well obviously not otherwise she wouldn't have shouted like that but still.]

Church

[hatesgoodbyes]

Not it's not fucking alright! Other me! That bitch.

Tex

[originalcopy]

Other you?

[He was very much aware that she had been here before and that he had as well. Gamma's time loop bullshit had soured him from wanting to read about what he had done previously.]

... you've found an old journal.

Church

[hatesgoodbyes]

Yeah, I wanted to know what had happened here before.

[She sounded bitter and angry, all of it waiting for a target to lash out at.]

I guess the Castle wanted me to, just to show me how fucked up I am.

Tex to end

[originalcopy]

[Great, now he's kind of curious.]

Pfft... oh well, I could have told you how fucked up you are. No need for the Castle to get involved.

[hatesgoodbyes]

Shut the hell up!

[Annnnd that target was making itself known.]

[originalcopy]

[She needs someone or something to vent her frustration out on... it's not like he's not used to being on the receiving end.]

I'm just saying, how bad can it really be?

[hatesgoodbyes]

Very fucking bad! [She's not mad at yo Church, she's mad at herself or more rightly at the other version of herself that gad been here before and fucked things up so royally.]

[originalcopy]

Sounds pretty bad.

[hatesgoodbyes]

Thank you captain fucking obvious. Well I'll never be doing what she did.

[originalcopy]

Oh what the fuck ever... it's not I can be any more helpful than that since you won't say what the fuck the big deal is.

I'm sure you won't... I'm sure you'll find all new things to fuck up.

[That seems to be the theme of life here.]

[hatesgoodbyes]

[New things to fuck up? Oh that just fucking tears it!]

You know what? Maybe she wasn't wrong, maybe she just knew better than I do. She might have even been on to something.

Thanks for helping to clear that up, asshole.

[originalcopy]

Ugh, that isn't what I... [exasperated sigh]

[hatesgoodbyes]

I think it might have been exactly what you meant.

[originalcopy]

I just meant you shouldn't worry about what a past you did... look this place fucks with us and eventually you'll do something that you're going to regret.