Tenth Temptation ♆ [Accidentally Dictated>>Dictated]

[putuporshutup]

[Meg sits up in bed gasping for breath. She had tossed and turned for the most part, only having minimal luck in the wee hours of the morning, zoning out enough to focus on a pleasant dreamlike vision for an hour or so. That is, until she was yanked back to the reality of hellish hallucinations... and a bed that shouldn't be quite so cold.

He's not always there in the morning, but this... this feels wrong.]

Cas?

[She cautiously steps out of bed and looks around their room. Both of their clothes from the night before were still strewn across the floor where they had fallen as they stumbled into bed together.

She whips open the door violently with a flick of her hand, and to her horror, the only name on the placard is her own.]

No--

[The strangled cry and the sound of Meg collapsing to the ground sobbing is muffled, but likely audible to some. Far more pronounced is the unmistakable sound of glass shattering and crashing to the ground, mingled with something like the crackle of electricity.

Some minutes later, she gets up and staggers back to bed, picking up the open journal lying at the foot of the bed with shaking hands and shrinking back against the pillows. Another choked sob escapes her, and her voice trembles as she speaks.]

He's gone. Cas is gone.

Comments

[babyaliendaddy]

[Shit. This month sucked donkey balls.]

Meg. MEG. Demon Girl. I'm ... ah. Here. What - what do you need?

[putuporshutup]

[Tell her about it :(

Don't mind the incoherent sobbing, Tucker.]

Besides this stupid damn castle to bring him back?

I don't kn-know.

[babyaliendaddy]

Meg, if I could, you know I would.

[He's silent for a moment.]

You need booze or hugs, babe?

[putuporshutup]

Thanks, Tucker.

[She sighs, sniffs, and lets out a shaky breath, trying not to break down again and very nearly failing miserably.]


...

both?

[Meg]

[hasmommyissues]

[ Silva should have the good sense to leave this situation well alone. But since he's a massive asshole he can't resist.

Also Cas was a fun playmate ... he'll miss him in his own little way.]

My condolences dear.

[The tone is mocking yet a little strained ... As if he isn't quite fully recovered from dieing twice.]

Silva

[putuporshutup]

Fuck off.

[Meg]

[hasmommyissues]

Such language.

Why it is almost enough to make the angels themselves weep.

...Oh sorry.

Silva

[putuporshutup]

[She actually laughs at that, in the utter disbelief kind of way.]

What the hell is your problem?

Meg

[onlyanapple]

[There was that horrible familiarity again. Crowley's seen Cas vanish from the castle more times than he cares to count, now. It was one of the many reasons he chose to push the angel away, to not get as close to him as before. He exhales softly.]

The bastard has a tendency towards doing that, here.

Crowley

[putuporshutup]

[That's right... Crowley had said he knew Cas, knew him well, even. She never really questioned that they didn't spend time together since... awkward, but she still wondered all the same.]

Well you'll have to excuse me for not knowing that and being dumb enough to-- [She cuts off, sniffling and fighting back more tears]

Meg

[onlyanapple]

[Crowley isn't good at apologising and taking the higher road, so she should be grateful for this brief moment of generosity on his part.] Sorry.

It's just part of being at his castle. You let yourself get attached and eventually they just...well. It's easier to just...not do that, in the long run.

[Probably explains his string of friends with benefits, really.]

Crowley

[putuporshutup]

'S okay.

[She gets it. And it's unlikely that she'll ever get quite so close to anyone, again. That kind of love and loyalty doesn't just disappear.]

Yeah, but it's not like we just met here.

Couldn't really pass up the chance to have what we never could back home.

[Left at her doorstep]

[the_effect_she_has]

[Katniss doesn't go in - doesn't knock. She ... fears what would happen if the two of them were left together, locked in their grief. She knows how much it hurts, to lose the man you love to this place.

So she does what she knows worked for her, long ago. She goes down to the observatory, digs up one of the flowers there, a blue one, and brings it back up to Meg's room. She leaves there with a note that says.] I'm sorry. If you want to get out of here, let me know. - K

Katniss [Dictated, later]

[putuporshutup]

[When Meg opens the door and finds the note, she wells up with tears again, but they're not so much for grief as for gratitude. Katniss is one of the few people here she would credit with understanding what she had just lost... and it was a relief to know she cared.]

Hey. Um... thanks for the flower. What d'you mean get out of here?

Meg

[the_effect_she_has]

[Katniss shrugged, as she looked out the window.]

Go wandering, get some fresh air in your lungs. Not ... sit there and think about anything. I find it better to clear your head where things are clear, you know?

Katniss

[putuporshutup]

[Yeah... curling in a ball crying into Castiel's pillow wasn't exactly the picture of mental health, come to think of it. Not that she cared, but Katniss was right, and she did need to clear her head.

She always needs to clear her head these days.]

You're probably right. Where should I meet you?

Meg

[originalcopy]

I realize it's not worth much... but for what it is worth, I know what you're going through.

I know you want the castle to bring him back... Just, be careful what you wish for ok.

[He's seen how badly that can end.]

Church

[putuporshutup]

Thanks, Church.

[She chuckles, but her voice is still strained with tears.]

Don't worry. Already tried that... didn't work.

Meg

[originalcopy]

Yeah, well... don't think this means that I don't still think you're a total bitch or anything. Because you are.

[He's the best at this.]

voice;

[peacockherald]

_{[ He cannot help it. A part of his heart breaks hearing her voice, how she sounded. Had he sounded that way, when Tylendel had left him the first time? And even if he was miffed at her for the mistletoe a few months ago, this superseded any of that. ]}

Meg... do you need someone to be with you right now?

_{[ To cry on. To keep you from doing something foolish. Vaneyl had needed someone - a lot of someone's actually, and still he had nearly gotten what he was after twice... ]}

forever

[putuporshutup]

[Oh, brother. Just what she needs, a barrage of guilt with the familiar voice on the other end of the journal...

No, she's not in a good place, at all.]

Why do you care?

Re: forever

[peacockherald]

It's in my nature I am afraid. I'm not very good at ignoring people who are in pain.

[lord_wizard]

[Well, this is uncomfortable. He knows that sound all too well. He's heard this tale play out countless times over the journal in some fashion, and he's taken his time in this particular spotlight already. He's a stranger to this woman, sure, but he's not a stranger to her pain.

He clears his throat, gently, unsure of what he can say.]

My condolences, miss...

[putuporshutup]

[Meg doesn't recognize the voice on the other end and she's tempted to just... not bother answering, but it's oddly even more comforting that a stranger would reach out.]

Th-thanks.

[lord_wizard]

It happens to most of us at one time or another, if it's of any comfort.

[He's not sure if it is, but he doesn't know her well enough to offer anything else. Besides, she seems to have her share of well-wishers.]