Third Flake [dictated/action-ish]

[defyingfrigidity]

[Conceal, don't feel. Conceal, don't feel. Conceal, don't feel.

Elsa had stopped using that mantra. Ever since she had accepted herself and reversed the so-called "eternal winter" in Arendelle, Elsa had promised herself - and the people around her - that she would be more open. She promised that she wouldn't go back into hiding. Bottling up her emotions and her power never did her any good in the years she spent alone, and she had most certainly learned that lesson.

But... she had a limit. She could try to be strong, she could try to keep it together, but in some cases... she just can't.

This is one of those cases.]

I have... a question. [She has to clear her throat just after saying that, because she's so close to crying (or possibly having a panic attack) that she can't stop a lump from forming in her throat. She can try - and fail - to control her emotions, but her voice? Nope. It's clear to anyone who's listening that she's really hurting.]

... How do you deal with people who are close to you suddenly... disappearing?

[Also, for those of you living on the fourth floor, or possibly just passing by: it looks like a sudden deep freeze swept through the halls. The temperature has dropped sharply, and there are small lines of frost trailing along the walls, ceiling, and floor. Said frost gets more and more noticeable the closer one gets to room 419...]

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this chick | dictated;

[thiefoflight]

[Hey! She lives in 413, TYVM. ::::\]

In a place like this, you have to kind of expect it, you know, considering how you've got here in the first place. [...is she sounding empathetic? She is actually kind of trying, hence the filter. Conceal don't feel, indeed!]

I've been here for three years and I've seen all my-- [Friends would be exaggerating, wouldn't it?] er, companions come and go. And eventually stay gone. I pretty much only have one left. You just... learn to deal. It's really all you can do here.

[defyingfrigidity]

["Learn to deal"... how vague. Elsa sighs.]

I'm very sorry to hear that. I'm sure the way I'm reacting must seem very ridiculous to you, then.

[... Yes, bring yourself down even more. That's a very good coping method, Elsa.]

[pompous_today]

There is not a good or easy way to handle it, Majesty. [He thinks he can figure out who has vanished thanks to her tone, and if that's the case... well, he knows this pain well.] Because no matter what, you have to keep going.

[defyingfrigidity]

I understand that. It's just... hard. My sister... when we were separated before, I was at least happy knowing that she was still there. But now... it's so different.

[Even when Anna stopped knocking, Elsa was still aware of her presence in their castle. But now knowing that she's totally gone... that fear from the night of her coronation is back. The fear that Anna might leave, and she'll never see her again...]

[rogueofheart]

[Someone close leaving? That's something that Nepeta regretfully has some experience in. She can hear the pain in her voice, and it only makes her throat tighten just a little.]

The most important thing to know is that they aren't just disappearing. They're just not in Purradisa anymore. But don't worry, they actually went back to wherever they were from. It's kind of like they never came here in the first place.

[The way it should be, in most cases.]

[defyingfrigidity]

That's.... that's good.

[So Anna's back in Arendelle. Safe, away from any of the strange tricks this castle might play. Elsa does sound relieved to hear that, but that doesn't quite negate the sadness in her voice.]

Even if I can't be there with her... at least she's safe.

dictated

[deadlybanker]

Disappearing from here means only they have returned home, I believe.

[As long as whomever it is was still alive and in no danger at home then... they should be fine. She was lucky.]

In that case the distance between us might cause loneliness but there would be the opportunity to be together again. It may be difficult, but try not to worry.

[defyingfrigidity]

I've been told that, yes. And I know I should be happy, not upset... and part of me is relieved that she's safe.

But... I've spent so much time without her. To be reunited, only to be separated again after only a few months... [A sigh.] I don't know how to cope with that.

Dictated

[i_rule_me]

I've not been here for that long...haven't had th' experience o' gettin' close ta people only for the castle ta snatch 'em away, as it'll do, so I guess I can't speak from any sorta experience I've had here.

I have lost people, though. More'n I care ta think about mos' days. In my world, death's a cheap thing, with people bein' brought back for almost no reason at all, but...it rarely works out the way most'd like it to. Some people stay dead who ought not to.

[David thinks of his mom and dad. One an Ambassador who preferred a simple, ordinary life, free from the complications and easy fixes of the extraordinary, the other an extraordinary man who sought to unite the ordinary and extraordinary, while pushing David to embrace who he truly was. They were from two opposing worlds, Gabrielle Haller and Charles Xavier, but they were his parents, and he missed them more than anything in the world. If he could have used his powers for anything, it would have been to bring them back, as selfish a thought as that was.]

Fact is, y'just learn ta live with it. Acceptin' that someone might be gone forever's not an easy thing, but it's a necessary one. Otherwise you'll spend yuir days pinin' for someone y'might never see again, an' that's no way ta live.

Re: Dictated

[defyingfrigidity]

[... It's funny how he mentions the possibility of pining for someone she might not see again, considering she spent thirteen years longing to interact with her younger sister again.]

But how do you accept something like that? I've... dealt with being separated from those I care about before. People I care about have died very suddenly. But those horrible feelings don't go away or lessen over time.

[radiantwingedone]

... I will assume you are related to Anna.

[ It was a female voice, and Anna had mentioned a sister. And he'd gotten terribly distracted by the library, but in trying to find the girl now.. ]

I am far from the best at how to properly deal with loss.

[ Because murder isn't the right response to murder- ]

... I would do something. Physical excessive that allows for little thought on what is gone, a research project, exploration, studies, until you feel less... overwhelmed by it.

[ If you ever feel less overwhelmed by it. ]

[defyingfrigidity]

[... Oh.]

You knew my sister?

[Elsa's not surprised. Of course Anna would make friends easier than she did.]

That... sounds like a good idea, I think, but I'd be a bit worried about getting other people caught caught up in it all if I tried to just let it go like that.

Dictated

[preformthisneigh]

[Another fourth floor resident here, seriously what is with all the cold. He doesn't really have a good answer for her, mostly because he's the one who usually does the disappearing. Still, what matters here is that this is a clearly upset resident, and it is his duty to make her feel better. ]

You sound like you need a hug.

[defyingfrigidity]

[... A stranger hugging her? While her powers are currently like this? Hoo boy, baaaad idea.]

No, thank you. But... I appreciate the offer of comfort, I suppose.

[stainedglassreflections]

... Set a goal, meet it. Then repeat? I suppose that boils down to "soldier on".

[defyingfrigidity]

Hm...

[That seems to be what everyone's saying. But... she's still really not sure how to do it. She wasn't exactly taught healthy coping mechanisms, after all.]

But what kind of goals?

Written

[fuckelves]

There are no words I can offer to soothe your pain - it is one I know very well.

Take solace in this fact: You are not alone. We've all suffered the same pain of having friends and loved ones disappear from this place.

If nothing else, look at it this way: This place, is not an overall good place to be. It puts you through trials and horrors you would have otherwise never experienced. Would you put those you care for through such suffering? Think of it as their liberation from this place.

Please, my lady, call upon me if you should ever find the need to talk to someone, or if you should need company only.

I will do all I can to help you through this.

Written

[defyingfrigidity]

[... Now this response is something that actually makes her smile. It had been a while since that time when she spoke with Thorin, so for him to offer his help despite that... well. It managed to warm her heart a bit.]

Oh, believe me, a part of me is quite glad that she's not in this castle anymore. I had... run across quite a bit of trouble some time ago, and while she remained safe throughout that ordeal, I knew what had happened to me still greatly upset her. I don't want her to go through that again.

But at the same time... I miss her. So much.

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[reiks]

[ it would be incredibly rude and unprincely if he were to just ignore an obviously distressed maiden. he might not be able to sympathize - his own case of sudden solitude is likely much different from hers - but hey, he's a good listener. ]

M'lady? I mean not to intrude, and I know full well that one prefers to spend their sadness in solitude, but I should hate to let such distress pass by without addressing concern.

There is little I can offer, but a willing ear if you are in need.

[defyingfrigidity]

I appreciate the offer, but... [A sigh.] There isn't much to talk about. My sister returned home, and I'm already missing her quite terribly.

[Action] Hope this is okay!

[schrodingersghost]

[Okay, now this was kind of awesome. Danny had had no idea that there was another ice user around here.

He assumed. He knew he hadn't done it. This time. Okay, he was almost completely certain. His ice had a way of slipping out of control whenever he ignored it for too long.

And this didn't look like the snow fairy's style.

The ghost boy follows the ice down the hallway, and knocks on the door it seemed to be coming out of.]

Hello? Anyone in there?

it's fine!

[defyingfrigidity]

[Elsa jumps, and for a moment, nearly panics. Her room - in an even worse state than the hall outside of it - is completely iced over, and her mind suddenly whirls about trying to come up with some sort of excuse, to make this person go away until she can get things under control--

But no. She doesn't have to hide anymore. The people here know about magic, nobody's shown any fear towards her magic... even so. She lost control. It's embarrassing. So for now, the door remains shut.]

Yes. I'm sorry; I'm fine, really.

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[originalcopy]

Suck it up, you're going to loose a lot more.

Or just avoid meeting anyone new.

[Church is a master of 'conceal, don't feel'. He's lost far too many people to the castle in his year and a half.]

[defyingfrigidity]

[... Wow, that's. Blunt. Maybe, in any other situation, Elsa might have been a bit offended by his crude words and unhelpful advice. But right now she's just... so caught up in her sadness over Anna disappearing that she can't bring herself to feel angry.]

I've tried avoiding people before. It never worked.

[keelahs]

[ She's one room away from being directly under Elsa, but she hasn't really notices the difference thanks to her suit. Living in it sure did have its perks sometimes. ]

I wish I had a better answer for you, but at least you know they're better off home than here. [ There's a duller note in her voice than usual. She just like Shepard herself. ]

[defyingfrigidity]

[Elsa laughs, but it's a hollow, almost bitter sound.]

Oh, yes, I have no doubt that she's better off home. I've been put through enough strange things this castle has thrown at its captives to realize that. And while that knowledge is comforting, it... doesn't completely put my heart at ease.