[Thirty-Two - Right Through The Eye] [Dictated]

[the_effect_she_has]

[There is a faintly embarrassed clearing of one Mockingjay's throat.]

... so. If I shot you - while I, ah, didn't remember who you were - I'm sorry.

[Pause.]

Really.

[Another pause.]

... I hope you're all okay.

Comments

[hatesgoodbyes]

...You shot people? [Sorry Kat but there is some snickering there.]

I think I'm impressed.

[the_effect_she_has]

Just a few!

[Aggravated sigh.]

Oh ... shut up, Tex.

[hatesgoodbyes]

Hey kid, take the compliments where they come.

[the_effect_she_has]

Is it really a compliment when the compliment is - 'you almost murdered people? Well done!'

[hatesgoodbyes]

Hey I said shot, you said murdered. And yes, in some situations that could be a compliment. If you are defending your people sometimes you have to make the hard calls. Sometimes you have to be the one with blood on your hands or willing to make the sacrifice.

[the_effect_she_has]

I'm willing to do all that, Tex... but that? Was not it. [She sighed, looking around grimly.] I panicked. I thought I was in a new kind of Game.

[toobravehearted]

[ His voice is gentle for she does indeed sound sorry. ]

I managed to escape it this time it seems. Is it time to take away your bow privileges?

[the_effect_she_has]

[She snorted softly.]

You really think you could take it away from me without me stealing it back?

[toobravehearted]

[ And he makes a small chuckle of gentle humour. ]

That depends. I do have rather a lot of hiding places.

I'm sure you'll be forgiven. What happened was disorientating for us all.

[the_effect_she_has]

[She is quiet for a moment, before she states honestly.]

I don't like having my mind taken over, Doctor. It ... frightens me.

[toobravehearted]

[ For how often it has happened to him before and since arriving here he can get behind that. There's a pause from him before he answers too. ]

It isn't pleasant, I know. It is natural to be frightened, a way for the mind to defend against it happening again. What aspect of it frightens you the most?

[the_effect_she_has]

That I could hurt people. That I could hurt the ones I love - without realizing it. That I could ... forget them.

[Her voice softens.] I think that's what frightens me most of all.

[toobravehearted]

[ Having gone through all of that himself and having seen his friends have their memories played with and erased too, there's nothing he can do to stop it happening here. Nothing he can think to say to make it better or even palatable for Katniss, because it isn't and it isn't acceptable. All he's really got this time is the truth and not a platitude. ]

Our memories, the people we know and remember, they make us who we are. I've lost almost all of my own memories at least twice before here and I've lost friends the same way too, I have witnessed them lose their memories and forget me. Another lost friend is apparently part of my loss. I don't like it, either.

[the_effect_she_has]

[She exhaled, chewing on the end of her braid for a moment, before she finally responded quietly.]

At least I'm not alone. At least I've got friends here.

[toobravehearted]

We all have, and that's what gives us our strength but also makes things so difficult.

[the_effect_she_has]

Because the castle can hurt them, and that would hurt us.

[pompous_today]

You did not do too much damage, did you?

[the_effect_she_has]

I'm not really certain, honestly. There were a couple of times I shot at people and ran away.

[pompous_today]

I certainly hope it was nothing serious.

[the_effect_she_has]

I hope so too. I mean, I didn't want to hurt anyone - unless I thought they were hurting someone else.

[pompous_today]

That is very typical of you. I am sure people would have sought medical attention by now, though- at least, I'd hope they would.

[the_effect_she_has]

I honestly don't know any more. There's something wrong here, Simon. I can feel it.

[pompous_today]

You are not the only one who has noticed, believe me.

[the_effect_she_has]

[She's quiet for a moment, before she sighs.]

... what are we going to do, Simon?

[pompous_today]

What we can- what we were both made to do. You will fight, and I will do anything I can to make sure people make it out of it safely. Whatever "it" is.

[the_effect_she_has]

[Katniss let out a long, and shaky breath.]

...I can do that. I can ... always do that.

[pompous_today]

Good.

[the_effect_she_has]

Thank you, brother.

[pompous_today]

Always.