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paradisa2012-05-11 01:25 am
stalkershiki) wrote in paradisa2012-05-11 01:25 am
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The Thirty-Ninth Day (backdated to a few days ago - right after finding out that Ted left)
[Shiki opens up the journal and her mouth, preparing to say something.
And then she closes them both.
A few minutes she opens the journal again... just to close it again two seconds later.
Another few minutes later, she does the same thing yet again.
Finally, she manages to speak into the journal, not bothering to filter in the slightest.]
...You'd think, after being left behind in the castle as much as I have, I'd have gotten used to it by now. That would be the smart thing to do, wouldn't it?
[And now, for the first time in a long, long time, she's going to sink into a feeling of self hatred, and jealousy of those who can keep it together, those who are "smart" enough to learn how to deal with losing friends to the castle, and just... everyone who isn't her.]
And then she closes them both.
A few minutes she opens the journal again... just to close it again two seconds later.
Another few minutes later, she does the same thing yet again.
Finally, she manages to speak into the journal, not bothering to filter in the slightest.]
...You'd think, after being left behind in the castle as much as I have, I'd have gotten used to it by now. That would be the smart thing to do, wouldn't it?
[And now, for the first time in a long, long time, she's going to sink into a feeling of self hatred, and jealousy of those who can keep it together, those who are "smart" enough to learn how to deal with losing friends to the castle, and just... everyone who isn't her.]