paradisa | 101.5 - what it is ain't exactly clear

[ten PM, radio static, record scratches, Leonard Cohen, soda opening ... business as usual, right? right?

there's actually dead silence once the music stops. then Mark's voice pipes up, minus that edge he puts on for his Hard Harry persona. he just sounds ... bewildered]

Jesus Christ, we don't have ANY new people this week.

Has ...

[the flipping of pages]

... that's never happened before. We've always had at least one or two. Either the castle's full, or tired from all those damn kids, or ... or ...

[all the air goes out of him in a tight, nervous sigh that he tries to turn into a laugh. something about this revelation has deeply unsettled him. and there's something else, something that he's been trying to shake, all weekend ...]

You ever get the feeling that ... something's just wrong? I ... I had this dream. The last few nights. And whenever I wake up, I can never remember the details, I just ... I remember it being like every other day here, where I get up and do stuff and everything, only ... it's all different at the same time. Like I'm ... seeing what this place is really like. And there are voices.

When I wake up ... I can't remember what they say. And I can't remember what I saw. I just ... it stays in me, it's down in my fucking bones. This ... this isn't just me making some smartass survey, I'm -- I'm honestly asking you.

Has anyone else ever felt that?