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[gevurah]

[ stephanie brown ]

[ Just as expected, she dwells on this for some time. They haven't spoken in months and had things not ended up this way, she would have kept ceased communications. There isn't much anger she holds toward the other woman anymore, but there is a severe lack of trust. For Kate, if she could not trust someone or they didn't fit her standards as reliable, she dropped them, no matter how guilty or guiltless she felt about it.

But to not say anything would be cruel and nobody deserves that. While she doesn't consider her a friend anymore, she's still an ally. ]

Come to the clinic.


[ kidnapped filter ]

[ Kate abhors using those words for this filter. Time to check in on everyone, though. ]

How are you all doing?

[ If you're in the clinic, holla. ]


[ And it should not come as too much of a surprise, but Kate leaves out a filter to her own friends. At least for now. She's tired and has to deal with Stephanie soon, so she wants to be completely prepared for whatever is to come. She doesn't mean to make anyone worry.

With some effort, she manages to sit up on her bed. She's currently in the clinic, much to her chagrin. Never has she liked being stuck on bed rest and being made to feel so helpless, frustrated and tired. It makes her feel like a victim, something she's always hated since the time she was a child. Even knowing the clinic staff were just doing their job, it makes her feel petty.

Now? She feels restless. She pours through the journal for details on what's happened in the castle during the days she was stuck elsewhere, yet there's nothing that really explains what exactly happened. As usual, there's no reason. There's never a reason.

She shouldn't waste any energy feeling so angry about this. ]


[ ooc; open in the clinic to whoever! ]

Comments

[gevurah]

This place will never stop with the surprises.

[valuedstrength]

I'm starting to see that. I just I- all of us are up for it.

[gevurah]

Are you sure you're alright, Steve?

[valuedstrength]

[Steve is tempted to deflect here. He resists since he has known Kate a while. She's a teacher and friend. He hates talking about his own issues though so he can't fully resist making it vague; like what's weighing on his mind is normal.]

... Did you ever know ahead of time things weren't going to work out and there was nothing you can do to change it?

[gevurah]

[ She falters herself, thinking about that. ]

Some things.

[valuedstrength]

[Steve nods.] That's how I feel now.

[gevurah]

Something about home or here?

[valuedstrength]

Home.

[gevurah]

[ She doesn't look at him, focused on the hands resting in her lap. ]

We can't dwell on these things all the time.

[valuedstrength]

I know. Jo already gave me a lecture about it. [He doesn't sound upset about it. There's no question she was right to do so.]

[gevurah]

I won't ask what it's about, but if there's anything I learned growing up... it's that we have to soldier on.

[valuedstrength]

[Steve nods. He appreciative of the advice and the lack of questions.] That's the plan.