09-Wings [action/dictated;]

[heal_theworld]

[After a few hours, Martel has realized she's one, trapped in the lobby, and two, her wings have appeared and won't retract. So she's stuck with sitting in the lobby on the couch, with her pink mana wings. Obviously this is a loss, and obviously someone is going to walk by and notice. So she'll deal with it as it comes up. But, she's also hungry, and can't even get out of the lobby to the kitchen.]

Ah, could anyone bring me some food? I seem to be on a loss, and I'm stuck in the lobby.

[ooc: Loss start! This can be action or over the journal.]

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[cloakand_danger]

[Deep breath. Of course she had it under control. It's not like she can't defend herself.]

Sorry. It's just... [He cups her cheek in one hand, runs his fingers through her hair.] ...I've already lost you once. I can't do that again.

[heal_theworld]

Yuan, I'm fine. I promise. You aren't going to lose me. Not like that, not again. [How many times will it take for him to understand? She wishes she could take all of his fear away.]

[cloakand_danger]

...I know. I'm sorry. [He pulls back and looks away.] ...I'm sorry.

[He feels guilty and terrible for overreacting so much. He knows he's being irrational. Everything about being around Martel seems to leave him on an emotional rollercoaster, and he doesn't have the first idea how to make it stop.]

[heal_theworld]

[She leans over and hugs him loosely, since it looks like he desperately needs one.] You don't need to apologize. Not for anything. [She pulls away, smiling gently.] I understand...how you must feel. You moved on, and I'm still exactly the way I was. I'm the one who should be sorry.

[cloakand_danger]

[He closes his eyes. Those words sting, all the more so because she's voicing the thoughts he's been trying hard not to think.] You shouldn't need to apologize. None of what's happened is your fault. [He leans into her embrace gently.] ...Right now...I love you so much. More than anything. I'd be more than happy to go back to the way we were back then...

[heal_theworld]

But we can't. I don't know why you're even trying. I know it will never be the same, Yuan. ...Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. [She doesn't believe that, but she's giving Yuan a way out.]

[cloakand_danger]

...You can't believe that. [He looks into her eyes, pleadingly.] We have this chance now, after everything that's happened. I'm not giving up this easily. ...Unless...

I know how much I've changed from the person you remember. If you don't...if you'd rather I backed away...I'll understand. [After all this time, and everything he's done, how could he really be worthy of her love?]

[heal_theworld]

What? No! [Okay, that didn't work.] I thought, that maybe if I told you that, you wouldn't feel bad about...leaving, if you wanted to. I don't want you to leave...

[cloakand_danger]

[He shakes his head, smiling with relief.] ...Why would I want to leave you? You're the best thing that ever happened to me, in thousands of years. I'm sorry if I gave you a different impression. I...I'm sure I used to be better at this. [He takes both her hands in his.] But I know I could never leave you.

[heal_theworld]

You're still fine, Yuan. [She runs a hand through her hair.] I know I make you feel uncomfortable. That's why I haven't been trying to bother you as much. [That's why she's stopped trying to contact him.]

[cloakand_danger]

...I won't deny it. But I'd rather be uncomfortable with you at my side than uncomfortable without you. I'd rather learn to deal with the changed situation than ignore it until I've lost yet another chance. [His tone is quiet and earnest.]

I'm afraid I need to beg your patience with me a little longer, if you'll grant it.

[heal_theworld]

Of course. I'll wait as long as I need to. I'm not going anywhere. Especially not today. [She's still stuck in the lobby, so she can't leave him anyway, until he leaves her. And she's pretty sure he's not going to be doing that anytime soon.]

[cloakand_danger]

[He takes her hand and just holds it.] Thank you, Martel.