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[ofhope]

[Pharos]

After my sister, I thought the silence was all I wanted.

[ . . . ]

I was wrong.

Pharos, are you here?

[/Pharos]

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[mors]

[Out of nowhere - as per usual - he falls into step beside Joshua, though he's looking out one of the windows in the hall instead of Joshua, as if he'd been there the whole time.]

You don't want the silence anymore?

[ofhope]

[ Ah yay, success. Of a sort. He doesn't require Pharos, or rather Ryoji's, avid attention. He just prefers the presence over the journals. No matter how bad of a day it is, no matter how chaotic, Pharos is one of the few whose noise will always be beyond Joshua's grasp. Not knowing what he's thinking is the kind of silence he'll always seek, really.

Setting the journal aside, Joshua shakes his head. ]

No. Even more, I...crave to get away from the racket. Even though I was here, the castle pulled me back in. It's like a disease.

[ He turns, leaning back against the arm rest of a couch. ]

But also a reminder. ...Do you dream?

[mors]

[Oh, he's paying plenty attention, even if it doesn't really seem like it at first. He doesn't really need to be looking at Joshua to be paying attention, after all.]

I dream if I allow myself to dream; however, I do not allow for it a great deal.

I'm not very fond of it.

Why do you ask?

[ofhope]

I'm not very fond of it, either.

[ He shrugs, sitting back. ]

I had nightmares a lot back then, when I didn't have my horns. They stopped a little while after I got them back, but...

[ A frown. ]

They've started again, since the castle forced them on everyone.

[mors]

And what do you have nightmares about, Joshua?

[ofhope]

[ No. ]

It doesn't matter.

[ . . . ]

This place was more lively with Langley around. Real girls can be good for that sort of thing, if they're not boring.

I don't think my sister is coming.