19 - Bandido - backdated to evening 10th - Dictated / Action in clinic

[radiantwingedone]

[ It sounds like the journal dropped open as someone moved a bed, followed by someone settling next to it, and the crooning of a pokemon.

After a moment, Duke speaks up. ]

.... Fairly sure late... [ He's got that hoarse voice of someone who not only was asleep for a while, but had recently gotten rid of anything that had been in their stomach for the last week. ]

However... have any else spent time that marked a year here.... in the clinic? [ Totally not mentioning the nightmares. He's going to pretend those nightmares never existed. ]

.... cannot have been only one...

[ Action for Clinic ]

[ And Duke is going to stay wedged in a corner made from one of the beds and the wall, if anyone wants to bother him in the clinic. He's not planning on leaving for a little while.

This is how he plans on dealing with his nightmare. ]

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My sister noticed but but

[radiantwingedone]

[ He had not been expecting that poke, so his jump is a big one, and his head meets the wall behind him. ]

Even when it is the one whom they owe their continued existence too? If it wasn't for him and I, they would not have been able to collect well enough to plot anything of the sort. [ And he knows that. He knows that, and Brave Vesperia beat that back into him, but at the same time...

His nightmares are fresher than his memories of them. ]

Have been avoiding that second, avoiding all of them because I know that. However cannot know when one will take offense to me for some reason that I do not understand, same as reasons for friend - reason why, even, he wanted to protect- [ And Duke didn't know if he could do that, when he didn't know if he could trust humans.

If he looks like he's thinking about hiding, that is accurate - his hand searches the edge of the bed he's sitting near to see if there's room for him under it. ]

[heal_theworld]

The same thing happened to me. I helped stop a war and was trying to heal a tree that the entire existence of everything living on my planet depends on, and a human stabbed me. Because they didn't think a half-elf should have that much power. But I can't hate humans just because of that one human.

If you avoid them, it will only get worse. They won't know what to expect, they won't understand anything about you, and that makes them afraid. And he wanted to protect them because he was a good person. And even though he's dead, he would want you to do the same.

[radiantwingedone]

.. I don't... [ He doesn't think it burns enough, anymore, to be hate.

Granted, the word Lowell used - 'despise' - isn't that much better. Thinking about what she said first was more painful than second, so he'll... avoid. ]

They don't even remember us. [ And please say there's enough room under the bed for him because Duke is going to try to curl up under there. ]

I know that.

[heal_theworld]

[Martel catches him before he can get underneath the bed.] Then tell me. What did you do that they don't remember?

[radiantwingedone]

They remember nothing of who I am. [ Its a bitter amused tone he's got there. ]

Saved them. My friend and I sided against his own kind to allow them to live. We won. [ He tugs a little to try to get away, but goes back to still. ]

They remember nothing of that. They know it ended.

[heal_theworld]

[She gives him a sad smile back.] I helped stop a war. Nobody remembers that. Nobody remembers I'm an actual person anymore. My brother made sure that they would all worship me as a Goddess, and never remember I was an actual woman with flaws and hopes and dreams.

People's memories are short. Especially when someone erases history.

[radiantwingedone]

... It's been ten years. [ He doesn't know how long Martel has been dead for her world, but he thought Genis had said for some time.

But even then, he's not really that upset that he'd been forgotten. With how humans acted, he was fine with no one remembering who he was, what he was like, or how strong he is. ]

Seems.. very short.