paradisa | Action/Closed -- Vongola XII

[It'd been a fitful night for Tsuna, his sleep tormented by nightmares yet again. Scattered nightmares, both from what he'd experienced when he was in everyone else's nightmares, and then some. Let's just say learning what a Chosen was meant for didn't exactly make his sleep any less troubled. He ended up starting awake at around three in the morning, and though he was tired, he found himself unwilling to go back to sleep, so he begrudgingly took a shower, clothed himself, and headed outside.

Zelos wouldn't be in the garden for awhile yet, so Tsuna decided to just take a walk around the castle, letting the cool air clear his mind. His mind wanders to the nightmares. He knows that without those nightmares, it's likely that most of those things would have never been brought up. Knowing what he did... even if it wasn't his fault, he couldn't help but feel like he cheated. Cheated into learning deep-seated issues of his friends. Like accidentally eavesdropping on an intimate conversation, if when you were eavesdropping, you also suddenly found yourself with an inability to walk away.

Of course, he hadn't gotten off scot-free, either, and his own nightmares had... varying amounts of real life consequences, from an almost too easy forgiveness, to a punch in the stomach. He... still wasn't sure how to feel about having his weaknesses exposed like that, honestly.

About thirty minutes later, he finds himself in the garden once more. He sits down on a bench and takes his dagger out of its sheath, and takes a small grinding stone from a pocket in his coat, then sets to sharpening his weapon.]

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That's not what I mean and you know it!

Oh, so old age is okay?

Theeeeen what if it came down to my life or the lives of an entire village? I mean if I did everything I could to keep myself alive, I could make sure I don't die...

[Tsuna frowns, but... calms.] That won't work, Zelos. I know you'd never do that.

Maybe. But it's what you're asking me to do, by making me promise that.

No. I'm asking you to either make sure you never get into that situation, or you find another way.

Tsunie, when you're in my position sometimes not getting into that sort of situation isn't an option.

And sure, I'll try to find another way- but sometimes there isn't one, okay?

Then you make another way.

[He seems pretty dead set on this.]

...As much as I can respect and like the stubbornness, sometimes life doesn't work like that.

Then you make it work.

I know you can, Zelos.

Whatever.

...

Promising someone that you'll do everything you can to keep yourself safe should be one of the easiest promises anyone can make, Zelos.

So why won't you?

[Very very dryly]

Gee, I don't know. Maybe being bred as part of some bastard's project to bring back his sister all cause he couldn't handle it when she broke that so-called easy promise has me a bit hesitant to make it myself.

You think that's it?

Edited 2012-10-27 04:13 (UTC)

Martel didn't break that promise. I don't know what exactly happened, but it's not her fault. [Where the hell were her friends when that man attacked her? Where was the brother who apparently cared so much, he had to do all this unspeakable stuff in an attempt to revive her? That's what Tsuna wanted to know.]

Edited 2012-10-27 04:29 (UTC)

If you don't know exactly what happened, how can you say that? Maybe she could've been more careful.

Because I saw what happened when she died.

[He doesn't want to say more than that.]

It's not her fault.

Uh...huh.

Still not respecting my reason, kid.

You think I'll snap like Mithos did?

Well, I'd hope that that bastard's a one of a kind.

But...I think there's something problematic in refusing to accept the small probability of losing someone.

If I had ever accepted it, then I doubt I would still have all my friends back home.

And I want to keep it that way-- with all my friends.

Well sorry, but I'm not giving you any sort of promise about dying.

... do you.. not think you'll be able to keep it, Zelos? Is your world really that dangerous?

[Okay Zelos? Is getting back to being annoyed]

How about more it's my life and just back the hell off, Tsuna?

[Tsuna starts a bit, staring at Zelos.

He's not happy with the answer, and he's not going to give up, but he can tell Zelos is pretty upset. There wasn't any good reason to keep pushing him.]

... okay.

Tt.

[Yep. Upset is one way to put it. He takes a moment before turning away]

We'll start training again day after tomorrow.

Alright. Same time and place?

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