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It's odd how we all tend to come together for an event, no matter what the case is.

[Those who know her, there is your signature commentary on the day's events, as given to you by your favorite private investigator.

But wait, there's more!]

Honestly, in spite of the individualistic nature that most of us are incline to cling to, there is rarely an event that is proposed by the masses that goes ignored. Those who tend to stay quiet are still there "to see what all the fuss is about" for one reason or the other, even though it's obvious that they would like to be part of the status quo in one way or the other.

[Okay, she's made a point. She should probably close that journal now that she has it out.
Wait.]

I'm inclined to admit the fact that I'm starting to oblige myself as well. It's "something to do", it's something to break yourself free of the monotony of perfection that the castle provides us. For people who tend to have their acquaintances from home leave over and over again, it's a way to familiarize oneself with good will and social circles, even if a person doesn't exactly feel "at home" with the people there to begin with.

[Wait? Feelings? Talking? About some degree of sentimentality? What...]

I suppose that's something that someone like myself can call familiar, though.

_{(ooc. OPEN OPEN OPEN... via journal. This is part of the plot I missed due to real life priorities during the holidays. Kalinda's usual tight-lipped nature is now changed to talking a lot! whaoaoaoaaaaa!!1 pre-existing cr, feel free to bank on this idegaf.)}

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[He's been worrying over Ino and as such has only partially been paying attention to the journals. But this...this is enough to make him glance at the pages as they fill with her words]

...I think that's the most I've ever heard you say in one sitting before.

[You know what? Instead of a "so what?", you get...]

It's not like I can't talk. It's not hard to find something to talk about, all things considered. There is a lot going on, especially considering the holiday season and the so-called "new year" to come.

[What is even happening]

Buuuuut you never really talk about things. Especially things that aren't all that important.

Unless you've got this big love for new year I never knew about.

I talk about things when it's necessary. The fact that people tend to use the journal system for boring status updates rather than something to really think about isn't really my problem, and I just decided to do change it up a little.

[Are you scared yet?]

Now new year's is a different story altogether. The stories I can tell about my celebrations would likely make people gape in disbelief, considering just how surprisingly chaste the castle as a whole tends to be. Not that I blame anyone really, I'm just putting that out there. But I'll tell you if you want to know why it's more celebratory than all the other holidays.

Edited 2013-01-03 21:34 (UTC)

[Yeah he's pretty much terrified now]

...I don't know if I want to know or not. I honestly don't.

[She's just telling you how it is. In excess.]

It's okay if you don't to know. I know that you're a little averse to ideas that are outside your comfort levels, and I respect that you've set boundaries. As a friend, I would care not to skirt those lines even if there is some leeway with such a title. Though I'd say you should take the fact that I consider you that to heart-- there are very few people in my life who have that true respect.

[Oh dear god what is happening. Why is Kalinda sharing feelings with him? They don't do feelings. This is not how things are supposed to be]

I...

I'm honoured, really. I am. Even if this is super weird right now. You know I...uh. Have all that respect and friendship and whatever for you too, right?

[So we can stop talking about it now, right? RIGHT?]

[HERE. HAVE ALL THE FEELINGS (in a relative way of speaking-- it's these two, after all). YOU HAVE OPENED A GATE BY OPENING THE JOURNAL. OH NO!]

That's good. I'm sure that unrequited feelings are something that would just ruin the sentiment. Not that I have much experience with that myself. Not on my part, in any case. [Because come on, how many episodes have had peeps all like, "kalinda luv me plz"? Uh-- ANYWAY.]

But I'd rather not dwell on that for the time being. I mean, there are a lot of broken hearts that I'm would sure would not appreciate my idly speaking of them in passing. Like I said, I know how to respect the feelings of others, even if they are not present or if I have no real obligation to them to begin with. [Oh wait, she kind of told you about it.]

Edited 2013-01-03 23:48 (UTC)

[Oh noooo Kalinda stop with the feelings. HOW DOE SHE TURN THE FEELINGS OFF?]

Consider yourself lucky. The unrequited thing is petty miserable. [And boy does he speak from experience]

Yeaaaaah. I'm getting a lot of you respecting other people's feelings right now. And your own and...well, pretty much a whole lot of feelings respect going on.

Did you maybe get really really drunk? Really, really, REALLY drunk?

I honestly wouldn't know. It's never been an issue for me. Obviously, it's a combination of both enchanting good looks, confidence, and knowing how to handles oneself in a social situation. I find that reading people goes a long way, even if it's an acquired art.

But to answer your question, no. I've not drank since yesterday, and even then, it was my normal amount of but a couple of beers. Why do you ask? Is this an invitation to go out to drink yet again? I wouldn't mind doing that, if you'd like. I've come to enjoy your company. I can't really complain.

...Thanks for sharing.

I...no that's not what I mea- Not that I wouldn't want to go drinking again, because hey that's always fun and I enjoy your company too. But you're not being yourself.

You're welcome. Like I said, you are an acceptable ally so I will share things with you when I deem it suitable.

That's why I may be a bit more talkative than I usually am, I suppose. I am still he same person, just simply compelled to spill my guts as it were. Why do seem so hesitant? Do you not like this camaraderie we've established?

Oh no no. NO. I like it just fine. This is just...um. New [And hopefully temporary] I need some time to adjust. [Or get you some professional help]

You've a very interesting and valid point, madam. I myself have only been here a matter of months and already seen people I have met come and go. It makes it quite a constant effort to maintain a social circle, or even a record of one's acquaintances.

It's good then, to keep everyone at arm's length. If you don't get attached to the people you do talk to, it's just another day if they do end up leaving for good. It's bad for keeping a tight-knit group, but when you consider that they have people or lives to go back to-- for the most part-- then it's a much better outcome than to live a life with volatile outcomes.

I suppose that's true. And yet, if I may play the role of devil's advocate - a phrase which more suggests pleasant, conversational debate than any true affiliation with mythological figures - there are those who argue that closer friendships and bonds contribute to a life more fully lived, no matter what the risk. The question, truly, becomes whether or not the pain saved is worth the lack of happiness that could he gained.

It's not that I'm saying that having friends is a detriment in any way, it's the fact that many people such as myself have lived lived where everything is more temporary and always changing, much like the castle here. Since this is such a universal constant, I've adapted to having this as a norm. I'm not about to be upset if someone I thought was a friend isn't one any more, and I much prefer it that way. It makes the bonds that do stuck it out though thick and thin all the more valuable.

It seems I owe you an apology for misunderstanding the thrust of your statement, then, madam. From the context, I had thought that you were implying that while our natures incline us to attend group functions for the sake of a sort of status quo, it was not worthwhile to form any relationships whatsoever. Now I see I was mistaken.

It's more than fine. It's only human nature to misunderstand every once in a while. Everyone does it, so I would not feel right in holding that against you.

That's quite gracious of you, considering that I don't believe we've spoken before. I do agree with you, though, about the need for flexibility in one's personal relationships. One never knows when one's associates may suddenly decide to sever ties, or when someone may write you a lengthy novel describing why, after initially accepting, cannot honor your marriage proposal.

However, no matter what risk I may incur in this instance, it is a pleasure to speak with you, miss, and I feel an introduction is in order. My name is Lemony Snicket.

It sounds as though you've quite the worldly life experience to know what it is you're talking about. Flexibility in most, if not all situations is always paramount because there is no real way to predict what will be the outcome to a perfect extent. There are always mistakes or things that a person might not consider-- this place is the epitome of such occurrences.

But I digress. [YOU SURE DO.] The pleasure is mine, Mr. Lemony Snicket. My name is Kalinda Sharma. I insist that you call me by my first name.

I would not go so far as to call my experiences worldly, but they are sadly extensive, yes. My past aside, it is lovely to make your acquaintance, Kalinda. I'm sure I wouldn't be the first to tell you what a lovely name you have... Though, I've often thought that of many Indian names.

Extensive could be considered worldly, but I suppose if you'd like to be literal, and you've yet to travel quite a bit, then I'll go with your term. But, in any case, it is nice to make decent conversation in the journal with someone who knows what they're talking about and will still remain open. And such is the case with my name. I thought it was unique, that's why I decided it was something that I'd like to stick with, in spite of everything.

Perseverance on any form is certainly laudable. Which, I suppose, can bring us back around somewhat neatly to the topic at hand, though I apologize if it was a trifle trite for a segue. Mistakes and unpredictability are, paradoxically enough, the only things I have found to he a constant, with the addition of eventual misfortune. The trick is not to remain positive, as some of the heavier-handed advice columnists of the world may suggest, but instead, as you say, to remain open to possibilities and action. Or, as is the case with my own personal philosophy, remain ready to flee from danger at any particular moment.

"Monotony of perfection"? Tut tut. I never find perfection...to be boring!

My dear, what you clearly need is someone with experience in regards to these matters.

[Fool meet fool, only Manfred does feel bad for her in his own way. Sentimentals aren't his normal self's favorite but right now he couldn't care less!]

Clearly if you don't feel at home then no one knows how to be courteous anymore! Tut, tut. Such a shame!

I would not mind familiarizing myself with someone who boasts experience. Confidence is always a desirable asset when it comes to someone who is opting to change my mind about an opinion I am so intent on keeping. [Yeah, she's definitely not to quick to talk about how set in her ways she is, either. Sentiments be damned!]

I take it you are the kind of person who is much more than just talk? I most certainly don't like to be disappointed when there is a friendly challenge at hand.

Madam: It would interest you, perhaps, to know that I am an expert in such affairs!

HA! I am Prosecutor Manfred von Karma! I make no "bold boast" for show like a mere rookie attorney.~!

Tell me your challenge and I will meet its requirements, if not excel them, perfectly.

I've an affinity for experts. I'm not going to lie, I like attempting to see if there are any flaws in their logic as well, but really, I like the fact that you wish for me to test your mettle. And the fact that you sound like a fair share of prosecutors that I know is something that piques my interest even more so.

But that aside, I'd like to see you attempt to prove that there is such a thing as true perfection, even in a place so decorated in a mess of silly facades. If you are so staunch in your beliefs, I'm sure that won't be too much of an issue, correct?

To hear that you are well-versed in legal matters intrigues me, I admit. Indeed, you are quite perceptive in that I would be happy to accept your terms.

Do tell me what it is you have in mind.

:33 < i did not know you liked parties that much clawlinda
:33 < if you want you can come to my next tea party

I like being social, to a certain extent. While it's interesting to people watch and see what it is they're all about, I don't necessarily like putting myself out there. I'm private, and that's the way I'd like to stay. [Not that she's really showing that right now.

Also, what are you, like twelve?] What is it that you do during your tea parties?

:33 < drink tea
:33 < also eat dainty cookies and eclairs
:33 < there is always mature confursation too

[Roleplaying is optional...]

What is your level of maturity? Not to offend, but typically young people who are so invested in tea parties are about, what, five? Six? Eight at best? Is there a large bearing in social gatherings on your planet where you come together in such a way? Am I being culturally insensitive? {Let's stop there before she sounds like Kankri...]

:33 < yes i am six [Sweeps]
:33 < parties are not a really big thing though
:33 < i suppaws that is why i like them so much
:33 < it is just nice to have some tea to get away from the trials of being a young troll
:33 < plus its lots of fun

So what about it? Humans are social by nature, even the ones who alone in dark rooms all day still secretly crave attention from others. That's just how it works, and that's why the truly anti-social ones always seem to become serial killers or something.

I bet you're a lot more social than you think you are.

You're right. I'm not going to doubt that I'm a social person at the heart of it, but there is only so much that I can do with the masses before I feel out of touch with them all. Though really, it's something that happens to everyone after a while, so it's not like I'm a special case by any means. I think the difference in my case is that I've yet to find myself particularly attached to anyone who inspires me to take that extra step in being social.

That's pretty rough for the people here who care about you, I'm sure. [Which Kara assumes there are. Who is really here all along?] To hear that you don't feel attached to anyone, or don't care enough to be social, that is.

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