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...Same dream again. It's like I can't get away from it.
[He looks out the window from his bed]
It'll be another month at least too.
[a pause]
I'm so pathetic. My life's better than it's been in a long time...maybe ever! Everyone else's got way worse problems right now. I know that. I shouldn't be moping!
And yet even when I tell myself that...
[He lets out a small sigh and falls back so he's leaning against his headboard, shoulders drooping. Even to himself, he can't properly express it. How everything seems so tiring, pointless. That he can't shake the feelings that it'd be easier if everything and everyone just disappeared.]
...Just...get through it. Pretend everything's normal. No one's gotta hear my crap. Spring's gotta come sometime, then it's gotta be better.
It's gotta.
...Same dream again. It's like I can't get away from it.
[He looks out the window from his bed]
It'll be another month at least too.
[a pause]
I'm so pathetic. My life's better than it's been in a long time...maybe ever! Everyone else's got way worse problems right now. I know that. I shouldn't be moping!
And yet even when I tell myself that...
[He lets out a small sigh and falls back so he's leaning against his headboard, shoulders drooping. Even to himself, he can't properly express it. How everything seems so tiring, pointless. That he can't shake the feelings that it'd be easier if everything and everyone just disappeared.]
...Just...get through it. Pretend everything's normal. No one's gotta hear my crap. Spring's gotta come sometime, then it's gotta be better.
It's gotta.