Professor Raine, I was hoping if I could speak to you about something. It's about my loss. I couldn't think of anyone else that would be able to understand. [Anyone that she's on well enough terms to speak about this with anyways.]
I should hate to say it, but that's actually very common in siblings. Memories or feelings relating to a younger sibling are one of the most common losses.
Because it gains strength from the intensity of our emotions. Memories are especially powerful, as they can affect not only yourself but the subject of your loss as well.
I see. Did they take something of your memory regarding Genis? [It was much more hesitant writing, she didn't want to bring up a bad subject for Raine.]
Losses, do you know of a good way to deal with them? [For which she includes a second subject in the case she's unwilling to speak about the first.]
Yes. It took all of them. [She doesn't really have a problem writing it, although it still makes her angry and a bit guilty to think about, even after all this time.]
For each person it's different. Especially for memories, it's often best to learn what you can about the subject and reflect upon it - but not to excess. Find some way to reconcile yourself to its loss, whether this is through a creative endeavor or by forming emotional bonds with others. Even seeking for a way to regain what has been lost, though this has never to my knowledge been successful without having something of equal value lost in return.
If that is true, than would you mind telling me something. If you have any knowledge of it? [She should, if Presea wasn't mistaking, but it was hard to know for sure.]
I can see why you'd come to that conclusion. [Funny how many people say that. And yet, not a single person has looked down on her for being a half-elf. For most of them it doesn't even register as anything significant in the slightest. Galadriel had even welcomed her. It's hard to hate a place where she doesn't have the constant anxiety of her race hanging over her head.]
Do you recall what happens to those who are given Exspheres or Cruxis Crystals and the reaction goes badly? Specifically, to those who do not have a Key Crest?
[Presea hadn't been there when they discovered Clara, but perhaps she remembered the story - or that of Marble, or even Anna.]
[There's another pause as Raine attempts to figure out how to say this without implicating Regal too much.] I would say by those who forced the Crystal on her.
Because the only known copy of Boltzman's healing technique was in Sylvarant at the time, and Cruxis had no interest in sharing that knowledge. Because the Unicorn's Horn had not been claimed by one in need for four thousand years, that was necessary for the transformation.
Believe me, had such an option been any easier, Kratos would have taken it when his beloved Anna had fallen victim to the same fate.
Understood. I only ask you attempt to understand the situation, and that it was not a choice made out of cruelty or malice, but in grief and a sense of necessity.
It is the murder for which Regal Bryant was imprisoned.
I didn't know her at the time, Presea, but from her spirit's impression in her Exsphere she was happy and prosperous until the experiment. She led a good life until Cruxis cut it short.
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Is it something you've already discovered, or something for which you're still searching?
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It's about Alicia, my sister.
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[Including hers.]
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Losses, do you know of a good way to deal with them? [For which she includes a second subject in the case she's unwilling to speak about the first.]
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For each person it's different. Especially for memories, it's often best to learn what you can about the subject and reflect upon it - but not to excess. Find some way to reconcile yourself to its loss, whether this is through a creative endeavor or by forming emotional bonds with others. Even seeking for a way to regain what has been lost, though this has never to my knowledge been successful without having something of equal value lost in return.
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If that is true, than would you mind telling me something. If you have any knowledge of it? [She should, if Presea wasn't mistaking, but it was hard to know for sure.]
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Of course. What is it you'd like to know?
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Do you remember that they had experimented on her as well as part of the Angelus Project to incubate a Cruxis Crystal?
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I think so. It sounds a bit familiar.
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[Presea hadn't been there when they discovered Clara, but perhaps she remembered the story - or that of Marble, or even Anna.]
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she was murdered.
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Believe me, had such an option been any easier, Kratos would have taken it when his beloved Anna had fallen victim to the same fate.
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Will you hold it against him, knowing what he had to do and why?
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I can't make any promises.
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It is the murder for which Regal Bryant was imprisoned.
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I remember traveling with him. I don't understand. How could he do such a thing.
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In self-defense and not without endless following guilt.
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Do you know if alicia was happy before she [she stops there, it's difficult to write. Raine should get the point.]
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