paradisa | xxxvi λ winter

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January 28th.

In some ways, I feel as though I am a ship adrift at sea, or at least a boat lost in a maze of canals. I do not know how to navigate a relationship with a woman from the future. The customs that are difficult enough in friendship prove even more complicated now. I know how a man might dictate a relationship in my time, but Lana is entirely different. If I commanded her, she would likely just be angry with me, so I am letting her make all of the decisions… it is strange, to say the least, but there is little I can do, even if I feel I am being emasculated.

Put like that, it all sounds very dramatic, but it feels as though that is the only way I can express it. It is one thing to be friends with women from the future, that I enjoy very much, but it is somehow different to call one your "girlfriend." I am just not used to being at one woman's beck and call.

I want to be prepared for this, yet I still feel lost… but I am still determined to prove to Molotov and the rest of them that I can be with a single woman and respect her wishes.

(It would be easier, though, if I were not always consumed with... frustrations. She will not even allow me to taste her.)

And what else plagues my mind? The Borgia, of course, as always… I fear Lucrezia will sabotage my relationships, and am concerned about that Cesare has been planning. I dare not place too many thoughts to the page, lest I bring bad luck upon myself.

Then there is Tim, who is Stephanie's "ex-boyfriend" –– I have yet to meet him, but I look forward to it. A bit of sporting fun would do me good.

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----- Cesare Borgia -----

[written]

Salute.

I'd like to invite you to dinner. Just men –– no fair ladies this time.

E. Auditore.

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Is it time for the snow to vanish into the ground yet? I hate snow. It is miserable to have to bundle oneself up like a Rossian just to go outdoors, and even more miserable to be indoors and wet in such heavy clothing.

Fuck winter, that is what I say.

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Can we offer someone? Someone that's easily embarrassed and make a huge scene.

I can think of a few men who we could volunteer.

Ahahah oh good! Same here.

So then all we have to do is find a way to offer them up to the castle for losses, and enjoy an early!

We could do some sort of sacrificial ceremony, like witches do. Who would you suggest, then?

Hmmm, I'm thinking Once-ler. I don't think he's had a loss. Maybe that Garry guy too!

You?

I do not know either of them, but what kind of a name is... [let him try to pronounce that] Juans-lure?

Once-ler. And beats me. He's a hermit up in one of the towers that seems to have more friends than most people.

Ah, but his friends may disagree with our methods.

Hey it's not like we're gonna kill him, just ask for a loss.

Yes, but if he will not come along, we may need to use force.

Oh don't worry, I've kidnapped him before for even worse stuff!

[He slaps his hand on the table.]

Bene! Then that is who will we take.

Ahahaha, perfect!

Now to just figure out how you offer up someone for spring! No problem!

Certainly someplace mysterious, like the castle... or perhaps in the lobby? Most people do things in the lobby.

Please, the lobby's not mysterious. That's just a hang out place.

What about the Insolitus? People are always going on about how mysterious that place is.