έξι [written]

[lioneyed]

[Felix]

[The words appear slowly, almost hesitantly. There's a reason he's doing this in writing rather than in person.]

Felix? I have a favor to ask of you.

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[Thamuris]

[lord_wizard]

What is it?

[Felix]

[lioneyed]

I [and there's a pause in his writing as he stops to work out the courage to spit it out] want to try pythian casting again. Just... to see.

[Thamuris - dictated forever]

[lord_wizard]

What? Are you out of your mind? It almost killed you last time!

[Felix - dictated]

[lioneyed]

[He actually flinches at that, because angry-Felix is kind of terrifying and, because, well, Felix is kind of right]

The last time I tried it, I was already dying, and performing it with an annemer. I'm not now.

[lord_wizard]

Conditions may have improved, but you're not cured of it. Besides, the last time we spoke you didn't think you have the strength for more than witchlights...

[lioneyed]

I've been practicing. My magic is growing stronger again, as am I.

Please. I just need to see.

[and yeah, he sounds a little desperate there]

[lord_wizard]

Do I have to name all the reasons this is a terrible idea? It might make your worse. Not to mention it would still be only performing a ritual that usually takes, at your confession, a whole group of wizards. Nor do I enjoy the idea of what damage we could do by asking the wrong question.

[lioneyed]

A number of lower-ranked celebrants. Which I am not.

And you have time to think of a question. I wasn't suggesting doing this right this minute.

[lord_wizard]

Well, that's fine but I'm not sure what doing this will solve. What if feeding this need of yours only makes it stronger?

[And he knows about addiction.]

[lioneyed]

It's...

[Really difficult to put in words, is what it is]

For nearly a decade of my life, that ability wasn't just who I was. It was... what I was. I know the draw of it's power, but I promise. Just once.

[lord_wizard]

I don't know, Thamuris. What if we...what if I ask the wrong question?

[lioneyed]

I trust you.
[And that's said with a calm certainty he'd been lacking just a minute ago]

It's why I'm asking you.

[lord_wizard]

[And that cements it more than anything else he could have said. How could he say no to that?]

Very well. I will do it.

Let's hope I do not prove you wrong.

[lioneyed]

Thank you.

[And the relief in those words is almost palpable.]

I'll give you a few days to pick a question.