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lord_wizard ([personal profile] lord_wizard) wrote in [community profile] paradisa2013-04-01 12:32 pm
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sixty-sixth labyrinth

[It's morning, and Felix is in the process of dressing for the day. He stands by the vanity mirror as he buttons up his waistcoat, thinking about how up and down he'd been for the last month. How little it had taken to knock him off balance. And as he's wondering this, he very suddenly starts to sing to himself.]

♪Call me a joker, call me a fool
Right at this moment I'm totally cool
Clear as a crystal, sharp as a knife
I feel like I'm in the prime of my life
Sometimes it feels like I'm going too fast
I don't know how long this feeling will last
Maybe it's only tonight♪

♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪

[He turns away from the mirror then and looks at Ashura as he continues]

♪Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I'm shot
Sometimes I don't know how much more I've got
Maybe I'm headed over the hill
Maybe I've set myself up for the kill
Tell me how much do you think you can take
Until the heart in you is starting to break?
Sometimes it feels like it will♪

♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪

[He starts pacing a bit as the song grows more impassioned and almost frantic]

♪Out of the darkness, into the light
Leaving the scene of the crime
Either I'm wrong or I'm perfectly right every time
Sometimes I lie awake, night after night
Coming apart at the seams

Eager to please, ready to fight
WHY DO I GO TO EXTREMES?!♪

[In the space where there would have been a piano solo there's an explosion of noise and crashing as he starts knocking this over, throwing books and clothes and other things all over the room]

♪And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪

♪No I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low
There ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪

[He's half in tears by the time it stop and then he just stands there in shock before placing a hand over his face]

...I am so sorry...

[It's not even clear who he's apologizing to and for what, even. He's not the best singer, certainly, but not the worst. Or maybe that it felt like he meant nearly every one of those words and there was nothing he could do about it. He's not even sure himself. Like usual.]
wishmadeinfire: (Sadness)

hubby's here, bb

[personal profile] wishmadeinfire 2013-04-01 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ashura had pretended to be asleep as the other prepared himself, still tired from his time in space and more than willing to be a bit lazy. Besides, he liked the sounds of Felix moving around, the rustle of silk, the sweep of the brush through his hair.

But today... today he listened to that song, his heart tearing as the verses came one by one. His eyes stun with tears, wondering what to say, what to do - and then the crash. The crash that made him stop his facade and sit up sharply, watching Felix with wide golden eyes.

Without thinking he rises from the bed, naked and heedless of it. He crossed to Felix, wrapping his arms around him from behind and pressing his face into the bright red hair he found so enchanting. He hugged him close, shaking, scared, for the first time at a loss as to what to say.

And so he held him, deciding it would be best to let Felix say the next words.]
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[personal profile] wishmadeinfire 2013-04-03 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ashura kept his arms around him as he gazed at the scattered items. He pressed a soft kiss to his hair before answering. ]

No, everything seems to have survived.
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[personal profile] wishmadeinfire 2013-04-04 05:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ He did not let go of him as he slowly drew the other back to the bed, sitting on the edge. He kept his arm around his lover, watching him quietly, trying to think of what to say. ]

Felix... you can talk to me...
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[personal profile] wishmadeinfire 2013-04-04 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think that's true, Felix. I only think you believe that to be true.

[ He shook his head and pressed another kiss to his temple, fingers resting over his hand. ]
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[personal profile] wishmadeinfire 2013-04-05 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ He frowned, hating that Felix thought this way about himself. He wished he knew how to make it better, hated that he did not have an answer or a magic spell.

All he had was taking his hand, holding it, trying to reassure the other he did not believe that. ]


You haven't hurt me, Felix. As far as I know, you haven't hurt other people here. There is no monster in you that I can see.

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kungfuwitch: (is this the real life is it just fantasy)

Dictated

[personal profile] kungfuwitch 2013-04-02 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
[Of everything she'd heard today, all the music, all the emotion... this was the hardest to listen to. She speaks before she can even stop herself]

Felix...
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[personal profile] kungfuwitch 2013-04-04 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm afraid so...
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[personal profile] kungfuwitch 2013-04-08 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
I wasn't here the last time this happened, actually. I guess I should call myself lucky.
kungfuwitch: (words I never wanted to say.)

[personal profile] kungfuwitch 2013-04-09 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
A lot can change in 2 years...

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kethedammit: shruuuug. (i could see it that way.)

[personal profile] kethedammit 2013-04-02 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
[There's no way to respond to this. On the one hand, he should: not responding could be taken as an insult, a refusal. On the other hand, that plan sounds a lot like putting your head on the chopping block.]

[Maybe... gentle ribbing? He wants to say, it's okay.]

He mulls it over for a long time, and the journal picks up that silence, one long, protracted pause.]


...Thinking of quitting your day job?
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[personal profile] kethedammit 2013-04-03 01:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Never could figure that out, myself. [A shot, gentle and kind, at the great number of soirees, meetings, and useless time-wasting de rigueur at The Mirador.]
kethedammit: (more emotional than a toaster.)

[personal profile] kethedammit 2013-04-04 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Score. Mildmay tries for a second hit:] Well, it's all so damn interesting.
kethedammit: i'm over it. (well whyyyy not.)

[personal profile] kethedammit 2013-04-05 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
That might be pushing it. I never could keep track of who was fucking who.

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