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sixty-sixth labyrinth
[It's morning, and Felix is in the process of dressing for the day. He stands by the vanity mirror as he buttons up his waistcoat, thinking about how up and down he'd been for the last month. How little it had taken to knock him off balance. And as he's wondering this, he very suddenly starts to sing to himself.]
♪Call me a joker, call me a fool
Right at this moment I'm totally cool
Clear as a crystal, sharp as a knife
I feel like I'm in the prime of my life
Sometimes it feels like I'm going too fast
I don't know how long this feeling will last
Maybe it's only tonight♪
♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He turns away from the mirror then and looks at Ashura as he continues]
♪Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I'm shot
Sometimes I don't know how much more I've got
Maybe I'm headed over the hill
Maybe I've set myself up for the kill
Tell me how much do you think you can take
Until the heart in you is starting to break?
Sometimes it feels like it will♪
♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He starts pacing a bit as the song grows more impassioned and almost frantic]
♪Out of the darkness, into the light
Leaving the scene of the crime
Either I'm wrong or I'm perfectly right every time
Sometimes I lie awake, night after night
Coming apart at the seams
Eager to please, ready to fight
WHY DO I GO TO EXTREMES?!♪
[In the space where there would have been a piano solo there's an explosion of noise and crashing as he starts knocking this over, throwing books and clothes and other things all over the room]
♪And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
♪No I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low
There ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He's half in tears by the time it stop and then he just stands there in shock before placing a hand over his face]
...I am so sorry...
[It's not even clear who he's apologizing to and for what, even. He's not the best singer, certainly, but not the worst. Or maybe that it felt like he meant nearly every one of those words and there was nothing he could do about it. He's not even sure himself. Like usual.]
♪Call me a joker, call me a fool
Right at this moment I'm totally cool
Clear as a crystal, sharp as a knife
I feel like I'm in the prime of my life
Sometimes it feels like I'm going too fast
I don't know how long this feeling will last
Maybe it's only tonight♪
♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He turns away from the mirror then and looks at Ashura as he continues]
♪Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I'm shot
Sometimes I don't know how much more I've got
Maybe I'm headed over the hill
Maybe I've set myself up for the kill
Tell me how much do you think you can take
Until the heart in you is starting to break?
Sometimes it feels like it will♪
♪Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He starts pacing a bit as the song grows more impassioned and almost frantic]
♪Out of the darkness, into the light
Leaving the scene of the crime
Either I'm wrong or I'm perfectly right every time
Sometimes I lie awake, night after night
Coming apart at the seams
Eager to please, ready to fight
WHY DO I GO TO EXTREMES?!♪
[In the space where there would have been a piano solo there's an explosion of noise and crashing as he starts knocking this over, throwing books and clothes and other things all over the room]
♪And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
♪No I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low
There ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes♪
[He's half in tears by the time it stop and then he just stands there in shock before placing a hand over his face]
...I am so sorry...
[It's not even clear who he's apologizing to and for what, even. He's not the best singer, certainly, but not the worst. Or maybe that it felt like he meant nearly every one of those words and there was nothing he could do about it. He's not even sure himself. Like usual.]
hubby's here, bb
But today... today he listened to that song, his heart tearing as the verses came one by one. His eyes stun with tears, wondering what to say, what to do - and then the crash. The crash that made him stop his facade and sit up sharply, watching Felix with wide golden eyes.
Without thinking he rises from the bed, naked and heedless of it. He crossed to Felix, wrapping his arms around him from behind and pressing his face into the bright red hair he found so enchanting. He hugged him close, shaking, scared, for the first time at a loss as to what to say.
And so he held him, deciding it would be best to let Felix say the next words.]
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...did I break anything?
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No, everything seems to have survived.
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Good.
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Felix... you can talk to me...
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[ He shook his head and pressed another kiss to his temple, fingers resting over his hand. ]
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All he had was taking his hand, holding it, trying to reassure the other he did not believe that. ]
You haven't hurt me, Felix. As far as I know, you haven't hurt other people here. There is no monster in you that I can see.
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Dictated
Felix...
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I...suppose everyone in the castle heard that.
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[He sighs]
Quite a lot has changed, it seems.
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[Maybe... gentle ribbing? He wants to say, it's okay.]
He mulls it over for a long time, and the journal picks up that silence, one long, protracted pause.]
...Thinking of quitting your day job?
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He answers with a slightly weak and shaky attempt at normality.]
Remind me what my day job is again.
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Glad to see you were paying attention that whole time.
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Liar. You were only there because of me. Though I think you had a better hold on Mirador politics than I did by the end there.
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