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[011]; where you invest your love, you invest your life

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I, Elizabeth. Hail, Gloriana, for I am woman, I am queen, I am myself, and much more than that. A woman of many faces. Woman, with Dudley, Raleigh and Seymour. Statesman, before parliament. King, when the cold death wraps about me and I rode to battle, to teach lesser men how to die.

I, Elizabeth, the mortal, so foolishly flawed and human in my folly. These lines upon my face are from sleeplessness, if these grey hairs were silver, we should be rich. My hands tremble from the duty and my words stutter for these many loses. My heart, it has been broken. If I were to be truthful, it has been broken for a very long time. The same as Mary's, the same as Edward's. I am of a bloody house, but we are strong, if only for our broken hearts to build upon. A house built on the ashes of a brutal war, sealed in the right of conquest. Forged again in the flames of a burning armada. Men may have the pieces of my heart where it so shattered long ago, but England, she has my bones, my soul. Perhaps that is why I can never love as other women do, not even when I want to so give myself. It is not so much that I hate them, but I loathe myself for ever forgetting what I am. ~~Now I have lost the only men who have ever understood that, here at least.~~

I, Elizabeth. The divine daughter of Henry the Great, and of Anne Boleyn, the Martyr, with my heart is so broken, and my bones sown into my land so they better feed my people. To God I commend my soul, should he find what it has become in his embrace a thing worth having. I have done things I never thought myself capable, I have faced death and won. I have done what no woman in England has done before, and I only ever wanted, in truth, the best for my subjects.

I, Elizabeth. ~~But we used to smile, did we not? When do we ever smile?~~

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[ open; dictated]

I am myself again. Forgive me my childishness, the girl I once was. I suppose we were all young at some time, nay?

Which my naivety of youth aside, you are to continue call me Your Majesty, Queen Elizabeth Tudor, the Virgin Queen.

My thanks.

[ Elizabeth clears her throat, determined to speak detachedly from the world around her. She is the forger of Empires, and if she wills this crippling hurt away, so she will be stand tall. She needed that space to keep them away. She was not to be the same as them, not now, not ever. ]

That aside, I have... graver news than that. Like so many before him, Merlin, loyal servant of Kings of England, most especially Arthur Pendragon... and my dear friend, has left this place.

God keep him as best He can. Grant him the peace he deserves.

[ / ]

[ Morgana Pendragon ]

He has left you a note. Whenever you wish to claim it.

[ / Morgana Pendragon ]

[ Her Majesty, Anne Boleyn ]

Your Majesty, I, Elizabeth, King of England in my own right, would seek an audience with you.

[ / Anne Boleyn ]

[ Arya Stark ]

Little Knight, will you speak to me now?

[ / Arya Stark ]

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It is good to be myself. [she laughed dryly.] Such courtesies are not expected so much from you, Master Wilder, believe me.

As did I. [To say the least of it.]

Well hey, maybe after being young for so long I'd thought you'd like to hear that title as much as you could.

[Since man the prospects you were looking at as a youngin seemed do drab ]

Well I guess he'll be happy he can go do his work now.

It is pleasant to hear once more, that I cannot deny.

[Well damn Zelos, way to hit the nail on the head. There aren't enough words how much she wants the reminders.]

As much happiness as can be provided. [Never mind that she knows the tales, knows the cruelty to befall him and all he is going to lose.]

Understandable. I hate how this place seems bent on making one relive the past.

[Don't worry you're queen forever and ever Elizabeth. Screw being the bastard child of whatever]

Of course. [Yeah, he knows not of the guy's future but it's still better to be home than here.]

It does have a perchance for such things. It... well, it was a lesson in itself.

[ Which is as much as she'll say for the time being. ]

What does it say of us, that sometimes staying here at times... seems better. [a sigh, and more silence from her.] But then, I have won my wars, my crown, as my father and grandfather did... I have no great trials to face, not of that kind at least.

[And he won't pry. Talking about the past is not easy, and she's probably in a down enough mood as it is]

[He chuckles] Really? Then I envy you. When I get home I'll be trying to stop wars, making sure to keep my place in the court, changing the ways we've done things...[a dreary sigh] trials upon trials.

[As much as she's not in truly happy state of mind, she begins to laugh. Because of all things this amuses her.]

You are as I was, and I am what you will become. [she keeps laughing for a moment longer.] I am a poor lover, for I can give you no true words of comfort to that end.

[He chuckles lightly in return]

Hmm, I don't know about that. I mean I don't think I could pull off your dresses as well as you do.

[Your crazy crazy dresses]

It's alright, I'll figure it out. In the meantime though, will you be attending the event tonight?

[Pfft, the death trap of her dresses is largely exaggerated.] It does take a certain amount of practise. As you saw, I did not always dress such.

[so. there.]

[but wow that question, it shuts her laughter straight up.] I am not sure. I had hoped to, but... I am not sure I will be able to, or have a real want to.

I saw! But even in twenty years, I don't think I could pull it off.

[Nyah]

[And that surprises him] Hm? How come?

Probably for the best, I do not think the ruffles would suit you very well.

[nyaaaaah]

It is a... delicate matter. [how to explain, the fight, the things she could not change. It feels shameful.] But I am not my mother's favour.

Not very. They tend to get caught on things. [Like his crystal, but details]

Hm, really? [A fight huh?] Well...technically its a masquerade isn't it? You won't be you, and she not her. So would it matter if you were in her favor?

[Elizabeth said nothing again for a short while.] She thinks my duty is to produce a son and heir, I disagreed with such a sentiment.

[the laughter was soft in reply.] You know it does. To other's perhaps, it does not, but it is different... [for nobility, for the games they played.] ... and with my mother's temperament, it is a extremely volatile situation.

[To say the least. But it made her sick to her stomach to be in this position, to speak of her own mother in such a way.]

[She thinks that's Elizabeth's duty? Ugh, just the mere idea makes him sick to think about for a whole host of reasons] Tt, as you should.

[a pause] ...If you wanna go, you should come anyway. Volatile situation or not, I doubt she'd start a fight in a middle of her own party. Hell, maybe she wants you there deep down. And if all else fails- you can say I asked you to come. I did get voted May King and I have no idea what's going on between you two, right? [Or rather, he'll feign ignorance]

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I fear I am a little too passed such things to mend my ways.

[Whether she ever actually wanted to have such children, is another matter entirely.]

She may, her unpredictably is legendary... [but that was something for another day.] You play these games too well, Master Wilder, far, far too well. Your mask is showing it's edges.

[The one he put up so well of ignorance, she'd noticed him having it more than once, when it suited him.]

[He laughs a little. Elizabeth was good at spotting his masks and sometimes he wondered how many of his she can identify. But ah, no matter. ]

[For now, he'll let the unpredictably part go, one does not speak ill of another's mother. That's just asking for trouble] Is it? Aw well, I'll have it covered properly before tonight, don't worry.

[ Takes one to know one, rather sadly. ]

I am sure you will. I'll have to seek you out, my king, once the mask is in place again.

I sure hope so! You're even free to laugh at my attempts to do your people's dance.

You know I never could, in fact I think you'd do it rather well. I have danced with you, after all.

I know, I haven't forgotten. It was a wonderful dance.

But thank you, I'll take that as a hope that I won't drop my partner.

I should hope not. [But she's laughing all over again.]

You will not, I have every faith in you.

[Oh how he does enjoy making her laugh] Of course! The most memorable of the evening!

Then I should have no trouble. ♥

And all the others after that.

Well then, you've convinced me to attend. But only if I may have another dance from you after you've finished with your ruling duties as King.

But of course.

[You can practically hear his grin] Great! And hey, of course! I'd be a terrible king if I didn't dance with the real Queen, you know.

I will look forward to it then, my lord Zelos.

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