twenty-third snare

[fanstheflame]

[Filtered Away From South Dakota]

I've been here a long time. Long enough to know everyone comes from really, really different places. And I'm glad we get a chance to see some of them, like... Like we just did. Even if some of us forgot that we hadn't lived there our whole lives, it was.... an experience. And the more I see, the more I understand some of the people we live with.

But.... there are still things that won't change. I'm still from my homeland, no matter how long I've been here or how many places I see. I still have my own history to account for, and it shapes how I think and how I feel. .... But it's so different from so many other places. Normally that's not a problem, but....

[he sighs, an echo of the wind through leaves that can be heard over the journal]

I've been friends with someone here for a long time, now, and recently she told me some things that made me realize that ... If she lived in my world, or I lived in hers? We'd hate each other. ... But I don't want to hate her. I like too many things about her... I don't want our worlds to get in the way.

But I'm afraid we feel too strongly about them for that to happen. I ... I guess I need some advice.

Comments

[fanstheflame]

I don't know. She's pretty stubborn, and she's been through a lot, here. .... Not only that, it sounds like this war she was in gave her a really one-track focus. Like there was only one way to look at it. That people either agreed with her US ... UN ... her space army, or they were automatically the enemy.

And that worries me. I'm afraid the Castle would take that and twist it, do something to her. And she doesn't need that. She's been through enough.

[originalcopy]

Yeah well, wars are the biggest bullshit there is.

If it weren't for this conversation would you never have known she wasn't on "your side"... so, just how important is "your side" to judging if she's a friend or not? She might be a bitch but that doesn't mean she can't be your friend.

Are you really worried about the Castle 'twisting her', or are you just being a dick about her not agreeing with you? Because the Castle has already fucked us all enough to drive us crazy and violent. Why do you think it would single her out and not you or anyone else?

Wait... space army?

[fanstheflame]

I know it could mess with any of us. I'm genuinely worried about her because it's messed with her a lot, recently. So does that answer your question about whether I'd still be her friend?

[he sighs heavily.]

And yeah. Something about Covvies and Innies, whatever that means.

[originalcopy]

It's slang... the Covenant and the Insurrection.

[fanstheflame]

... Have you heard it around, or are you from the same world? [this could be good. maybe he can get some insight into her world, find a way to talk to her about it]

[originalcopy]

The same universe. World doesn't quite cover it.

There are... or were anyway, hundreds of inhabited chunks of rock out there where I'm from.