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[dupable]

oh man, i just realized that next month is april!
which means that i will be fifteen soon.
that's pretty crazy, especially considering i think i still look about the same age as when i first showed up here at paradisa.
in fact i am almost sure i do.
i think that was always part of the castle though, but it's still really frustrating to have to deal with.

[ he stops writing for a minute so he can flop over on the lobby's couch and kick his feet up on the top of it, head hanging over the edge of the seat. When he starts writing again his writing is somehow worse... which considering how chicken scratching his handwriting already is that's pretty sad. ]

it doesn't feel like i have been here that long though, and sometimes i forget about all the things that i am supposed to be doing at home.
ugh, bluh. ok i will stop talking about myself to you guys!
this is probably really boring to read anyways.
i think i am boring myself a little bit!

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[blabs]

[ dictated thoughtfully ]

Man, wouldn't it suck if we were here for like five years and still looked the same?

[dupable]

[ Switches to talking! ]

Oh man... I don't even want to think about that! I don't want to be eighteen and still look like this.

[blabs]

Tell me about it... man, grown-ups have it so easy!

[dupable]

Yeah! They're already fully grown so it doesn't really affect them at all.

[blabs]

They probably actually like it. Appearing to be twenty-nine for the rest of their Paradisa lives...

[dupable]

Which I guess is great for them, but it kind of blows when you aren't an adult yet.

[blabs]

We can always hope that we get sent home to live a couple years and then come back. Like when people go into those comas and stuff.

[dupable]

I'm not sure that is exactly a great improvement either! I mean if I left and was gone for several years I think I would be annoyed to come back here.

[blabs]

True... but if you left and came back, then that probably means that Paradisa is determined to keep you, right?

[ ... wait, she stops to think about that, and completely forgets the point that she was going to make ]

Actually, yeah, no, that would be pretty depressing. But maybe nice, if you have friends here?

[dupable]

I guess so. I mean, I definitely don't want to lose every friend I made here! I just don't know if I want to get stuck here forever, you know?

[blabs]

No, I know what you mean... [ a sigh. ] It's hard to think about, because then it's like you have to make a choice and decide what's more important.

[dupable]

Yeah... It just kind of sucks all around.

[blabs]

I'll add this to my list.

[dupable]

You have a list of things that suck?

[blabs]

About Paradisa, yeah! If I had a list of things that just sucked in general, it'd get pretty long, I think.

[dupable]

Haha. Oh man, I know exactly what you mean. I don't think I would even know where to start with one.