šattu eššutu | [dictated]

[demonologist]

As of today, I will have been in Paradisa for an entire year. It hardly seems possible that much time has passed and yet, in other ways, it feels like I've been here for longer.

I've been looking back at my entries in my retired journal, going over the recorded interactions of the past and I can safely say that this place has definitely changed me. I'd like to claim that it's been for the better, although that may be debatable depending on whom you speak to.

[There's a trace of ironic amusement in his tone.]

Nevertheless, I choose to view this day - this milestone - as something to be celebrated. You'll get no bemoaning of my lot from me. In this particular moment, I'm perfectly content. I may not have everything I want, but I believe I have all that I need.

Comments

[downright]

Yeah, a few times within the past two years or so. It's weird. I mean, reading the older entries in the journal and not having any recollection of having said or done anything, and... not knowing whether it should count for anything even.

Like say, if you were an arse to someone previously and can't remember it now, but they do, then it's just awkward.

(sorry for the lateness!)

[demonologist]

I would agree that it's awkward. When I first came here I found out that I'd been here at least two times before. And pulled from future timelines. So I resolved not to read those particular entries.

Dealing with people on a face to face basis, however has it's own challenges.

and agsfkdflgf me too! :3

[downright]

You don't feel at all tempted to find out about what's going to happen in your future? [ Unlike Wes, he's read through all the entries because he just couldn't help himself. B( ]