Chapter Nine- For you I'll risk it all

[thetrudger]

I’m not a woman anymore! [Despite his good attitude during the loss, he sounds extremely grateful for it to be over.] It’s nice to have something between my legs again.

[…]

I meant trousers instead of a skirt like I’d been wearing. You know, there was no fabric there because skirts are open and trousers have fabric there.

[Well, this was another stupid entry by Geoffrey Chaucer.]

Damn it. You know what I mean.

[Although, if he’s honest, he’s glad to have that back, too.]

Filtered to Bucky

[He’s not exactly sure what to say. He hesitates before speaking.]

I’m… me again. Just so you know. And I was just wondering… if I could have the pleasure of your company? Your loss is over, yes?

[ooc: Open over the journal!]

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[blue_sniper]

Well, you chose the wrong person. You should find someone else less broken. [Yes, he is broken. Or at least thinks he is. He's trying to push him away.]

[thetrudger]

[He huffs at that. He finally, finally found someone who's making him happy, and he thought he was making him happy. And he's not going to let someone he cares about just slip through his fingers.]

Where are you? What room?

[blue_sniper]

[He's on the roof. He's always on the roof when he wants to hide from people. But he's not going to tell you that if he doesn't want to be found. Good luck, Chaucer.]

Now why would I tell you that?

Action!

[thetrudger]

You can't just seal yourself away from everyone. If you won't tell me, I'll just have to find you myself.

[And with that he's off, checking his tower for Bucky's room. He doesn't have to look far. He knocks on the door a few times before letting himself in. He looks around the room for Bucky before determining he isn't there.

He goes down, searching the lobby, the kitchen, the seasons room. Until he comes to his senses and remembers where Bucky went to drink. The roof. Maybe...

He hurries up the stairs. It's taken him about forty minutes to figure it out, but he's just as worked up as he was when he spoke to Bucky. With a huff, he stalks over to where Bucky's sitting and plunks down beside him.

And before he can say anything stupid or idiotic, Chaucer grabs his face and kisses him.]

forever and ever

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky didn't actually expect Chaucer to actually find him. Only a few people know he goes to hide on the roof. And he certainly wasn't expecting that kiss at all. his mind actually goes blank as he kisses him back for a good few moments until he remembers and pulls away, standing up and putting some distance between them.]

How did you even find me?

[thetrudger]

[Chaucer stays where he's sat, looking up at Bucky.]

You told me you went to the roof not that long ago.

[blue_sniper]

[He did, too.] ...Damn.

[And then, annoyed:] You know, you weren't supposed to look for me.

[thetrudger]

[Irritatedly:]

Well, I did. And I found you. So what now?

[blue_sniper]

...I don't know. [He really doesn't. He just looks kind of lost right now.]

[thetrudger]

Bucky, let me tell you something selfish.

I've never really had good friends in my life until Paradisa. I let my sister slip away from me. I let those three gents slip away from me by gambling. It sounds ridiculous, but I really felt something when I kissed you. I don't want to let you slip away, too. So... stop being an idiot.

[Real... romantic, Chaucer.]

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky freezes at that, kind of staring at him, like he doesn't believe him. Then he snorts.] You don't know what you're getting into.

[thetrudger]

[He looks over at him, rolling his eyes.]

Perhaps you're right. I should just give up on the first real person to like me in years. That is a completely logical move.

Bucky, this isn't marriage. I just want to spend time with you.

[He stands up and walks over to Bucky.] Please?

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky is nothing if not stubborn and stands his ground.] And I still think I'm not the right person.

[thetrudger]

[He shakes his head.]

You know what I think? I think you're full of shit right now. I. like. you. All right? And I thought you liked me as well, but maybe I was wrong, if you're pushing me away so violently.

[blue_sniper]

It's not that simple. It's never that simple. You know I used to be like you, before the war, before...everything happened to me. Now I'm bitter and cynical and you actually like me? I think you might be a bit crazy, because I'm not a good person. I do like you, a lot, but I'm not... [He looks away.] You deserve a lot better than me.

[thetrudger]

[With a frown, he grabs Bucky's face again and kisses him. Just a simple, passionate kiss. And then he pulls away.]

I want you, okay? I'll take the bitter and cynical parts because Bucky? I'm a terrible person. I curse and I drink away my troubles. I act like a fool so people will laugh with me instead of at me. I'm really good at fucking things up. And I've been thinking this whole time that I don't deserve you. So just... shut up and kiss me.

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky gives a little laugh at that, a little smile.] I'm the one who always says I'm a terrible person. You're not allowed to. [And he does kiss him again.]

[thetrudger]

[Geoff's about to make a retort when Bucky actually kisses him. This kiss seems to mean so much more than the others. It isn't experimental, hungry, angry, attention-grabbing. Just Bucky and Geoff. A little bit terrifying, but thrilling at the same time.

He reaches out and takes both of Bucky's hands in his own, letting the kiss linger and smolder on its own.]

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky pulls away gently, his face still close to Geoff's, his eyes half open. He gives a small smile, and this one is genuine.] Hi.

[thetrudger]

[He smiles back.]

Hi. So is this a date?

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky laughs.] No, not exactly. Needs more music and dancing.

[thetrudger]

Music and dancing? Like...?

[He lets go of one of Bucky's hands, but holds the other up and bows deeply.]

[blue_sniper]

[Bucky is really laughing at him now.] Okay, no, no. We don't dance like that anymore. At all.

[thetrudger]

[Geoff grins, dropping his hand.] How else would one dance?

[blue_sniper]

Wait a minute. Castle, can I get a radio? [And lo and behold, there is one there on the ground.] Hopefully this damn thing will tune...