Three Spoons {Dictation}

[cyan_maid]

[This entry is backdated to about midmorning on July 1st.]

[There are some dainty sniffles coming from the journal today, as if they came from someone who had just begun to recover from a cry, and not even the good kind of cry that makes you feel better. A couple cake batter fingerprints appear, and then are hastily wiped away. That only smudges the paper.]

Oh...I'm sorry about that, I...

[A pause. Jane blows her nose.]

I was...cleaning up a mess...in the kitchen. I'm really sorry about all of that batter...in the sink...that's my fault...!

[Oh sugar, her voice is cracking. Better make this quick.]

I think I'm...ready to admit to my loss...

{Filtered to - Anyone who confronted her about her loss}

All of you were right. I'm sorry I was so prickly about it before.

{Filtered to - Uru}

Would you still...let someone into the baking club even if they couldn't bake...?

Comments

[selfless]

You don't need to be sorry. [and with that, she'll give her a break if she wants it. But she miiiiight be keeping an eye on this journal entry to make sure she'll be okay]

[cyan_maid]

I still feel a bit sorry, though...

[Very quickly and a little hiccupy] It's really not something to get flustered over, right? People find their losses all the time! I mean, it was only a matter of time before it hit me, too!

[selfless]

But I think it's normal to be sad about it! The castle... losses are supposed to be something that's really precious to a person. I don't think it's a bad thing to be sad when you've lost something important.

[cyan_maid]

[Sniffle sniffle. Hang on, she's got to blow her nose.]

But what use is a castle full of sad folk?

[selfless]

Then you keep that sadness locked up inside the whole time... If you let it out, then that's better. [OH MY GOD, Colette stop being such a hypocrite]

[cyan_maid]

I, I suppose...

[selfless]

And... it'll be okay. When you go home, you'll have your loss back again, so it'll only be gone for a little while. Even if it's painful now, it'll all be okay eventually.

[cyan_maid]

...But...no one knows when they'll get home. Aren't there people who have been here for years?

[selfless]

Well... some do stay for a long time, but most go home after just a few months. And no one has stayed here forever, so everyone goes home eventually.

[cyan_maid]

I guess the only hope for my baking is to go home, then, by hook or by crook.

...Oh! Gosh, I know who you are, but you don't know me, and you've been really kind through this whole thing...

[selfless]

Baking? [;A; poor thing] Maybe you can bake, just in different ways! Even if you can't do the baking part, maybe you could bake with someone else, or you could help someone bake? It wouldn't be the same... but maybe it would be fun?

Oh! [hehe, she sounds a bit sheepish] It's okay, you don't have to be sorry. My name is Colette!

[cyan_maid]

Ah, yes, baking. I - I would like to help someone bake, if I could, and heaven knows there are so many more desserts I can make without the oven. I just don't think it would be quite the same.

Yes, yes, you told me! But I never told you my name. I'm Jane.

[selfless]

Oh, I did, didn't I. [ahaha, but she sounds grateful for the name]

It's nice to meet you, Jane.

[cyan_maid]

It's alright, don't worry about it.

It's nice to meet you too, Colette. I...wish I could have started off in better spirits, though.

[selfless]

It's okay, I'm glad you're feeling a little better? [she says it with a questioning tone, making sure]

[cyan_maid]

I'm feeling a little better, yes. I think the cry helped a little bit. I don't feel good, but...I definitely feel better.

[She sniffs one more time.]