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002 Summons ❈ Written ❈ Backdated to July 1st

["Camp" is over, and Sheena--for the most part--has settled in. If one were to call scouring the place for a way out "settling in" that is. And now, after that initial storm of activity, Sheena is staring at her journal--just as she has for the past day or so. She had initially ignored Colette's message--until the words of both the Zelos Message and her own Private message had finally sunk in. She had done some research and was now kicking herself for not trusting her friendship with Colette.]

She reaches for the book for what seems like the hundredth time, but this time, she takes it and opens it. Sighing, she reaches for the brush and ink; what she has to say is easier written than spoken--at least for her--since it allows her to think before speaking this time.]

[PRIVATE TO COLETTE]

Colette. You're not the one who should apologize... I am. I should have known there was something wrong, but I didn't even realize it. [She pauses and watches as the ink dries.] I'm sorry it took me so long to get back to you regarding your message, but I had a lot of thinking to do [including that it may have been too late to save the friendship]...and I was afraid to respond. [The last is written smaller and much faster than the rest. Even writing, it's hard for her to express herself.]

But, yes, I'd like to meet up and discuss things. If you still want to.

[ooc: Sorry I didn't respond to your journal when it went up, but Nature hated me that day. And work was no better. :)]

[Putting the brush down, she waits for the ink to dry before closing the journal.]

[She's not even going to bother contacting Zelos. No, she'll "speak" to him when he gets back.]

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[Colette was fearing the worst when Sheena didn't reply to her last message. So seeing this message is... such a relief. Feeling like a weight is lifting off her heart, she quickly grabs a pen (and knocks over a few things on her desk in the process, oops)]

Of course I still want to see you! Where would be best for you? [she almost wants to ask if right now is okay, but she doesn't want to pressure Sheena]

[It's the sound of something falling coming through her journal that makes Sheena look at it, a small smile touching her lips when she sees the response. Ironically, she's less clumsy with her writing utensils than she is in her other activities, so there are no mishaps when she reaches for them to reply.]

Good! Ummm...I'm in the castle, so here? Out front? [It's the area she's most familiar with at the moment.] How soon can you get here? [Now is the perfect time--or they may never do it.]

Okay! I'm not busy, so I can come over right now.

[it's what she wants... from her perspective, it's been a really long time since she saw her friend]

All right. I'll be downstairs waiting.

[She closes the book and puts everything away before heading out, her hands shaking from how nervous she feels.]

[taking a deep breath to calm her nerves as well, Colette quickly puts her writing utensil back on her desk (she can worry about cleaning up the stuff she knocked over later), and hurries towards the castle! When she gets to the designated meeting area, she clasps her hans in front of her, and looks around to see where Sheena might be]

[Sheena's not too far away. She's just inside the door, watching as her friend approaches. Fighting the urge to turn around and hide, she takes a few deep calming breaths before stepping outside, her own hands down by her side.]

Colette...

Sheena! [those butterflies fly out of her stomach for a moment, and in that second she's just so... happy! It's been years since Sheena was last here, and the last time she didn't even know who Colette was. So to see her like this, it's like a little piece of home. Sorry Sheena, but have a Colette hurrying up to give you a HUG]

[After the initial shock of the hug, Sheena can only look at the other girl in surprise.]

Does this mean you forgive me?

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[she lets go after the hug is over, and nods! Looking... actually a bit confused]

O-Of course I forgive you! I'm... I'm the one who should be apologizing for being so rude to you.

[And Sheena looks downright embarrassed and upset. Not by the hug, but by what she had done.]

No...I should have had more faith in you. I never should have thought that about you; that you would betray me and our friendship like that.

[Colette shakes her head]

It's not your fault. I said... some really mean things. At that time, that other me was trying to push you away, and you didn't know about losses, or anything.

So it's not your fault at all! You shouldn't have to be sorry.

[Stubborn ninja is stubborn.]

I know I didn't know about second losses at the time; but that still doesn't excuse it, Colette. You couldn't help what happened...

I could have if I had just...believed in you...[Like Colette had in her one time.]

[hm, she understands Sheena's guilt. After all, if the positions were reversed, Colette would feel terrible... so she ponders this for a moment]

But you couldn't help it either.

Maybe.. maybe we can both forgive each other? And we'll know that it wasn't either of our fault?

[She looks at Colette with a glimmer of hope.]

I... I'd like that a lot, Colette. And do me a favor? Remind me of this if it ever happens to me?

[she smiles and nods] Alright, I promise!

[seeing that glimmer of hope really makes her heart stir and her smile grows] I'm so glad you're here, Sheena... I've really missed you.

[She returns the smile shyly. Then hers grows slightly larger at Colette's news. Now that she had been ready for.]

Yeah, Raine told me you've been here a long time. [She laughs a little sheepishly.] It's still kind of hard for me to understand, though. I mean, I just saw you not too long ago...

[she nods, and looks a bit sheepish]

Mm, I know it can seem a bit strange. When you come here, time stops for you back home! So, when you go back, it's as if you've never left, and no one knows that you've been gone. It's all confusing, but it makes more sense the longer you stay.

Yeah, Raine said that, too. So did someone named Uru.... [Short conversation, but Sheena feels Uru's being treated unfairly.]

I can understand stopping time back home and keeping us the same so we're not different when we go back...but... There should be a way to let people grow up while here--if they want to...

Oh, Uru! She's really nice, I think you two would get along well...

Mm hm. It would be nice to look a little older, although I guess that would be just as weird for people who get here.

She seemed nice. [Looks down at herself.] I feel a little guilty about these things after talking to her...

Yeah, I guess you're right, but if the castle can take, why can't it give that--then take it away when the person leaves?

I'm not sure... I don't think anyone really understands why the castle does what it does. It must have a very complicated reason.

You know... It probably does what it does because it can. If people can act like that--why can't this castle?

B-But that's not true. Just like I think people are mostly kind, I think the castle is the same. Just like any person, it's a complicated mix of a lot of feelings.

[Sheena regards her friend a moment before smiling. Sometimes she wished she wasn't always suspicious of people.] Sorry, Colette. Old habits are hard to break.

But, you may be right. ["May be", hell. She'd been right about a lot of people--including Sheena.]

[the maybe makes her smile :') she knows sometimes her views of the world can be... idealistic to say the least, but they make sense to her. It's nice when people consider them and don't just dismiss them]

I guess the only way to know, is to try and believe in people.

Colette, do you know how hard it is for me to do that? [She's serious.] Sometimes I really wish I could just believe in someone and trust them right from the beginning.

And not worry about being hurt by them.

Mm hm, I know it's not easy. [she drops the smile, so that Sheena knows she's taking this seriously]

That's why I think it's even more amazing and kind that you said 'maybe'.

No, it's not. [But Colette makes it look so easy.]

Oh. [She smiles sheepishly.] Well, traveling with you and Lloyd helped.

[ah... that makes her smile, really and truly]

I'm glad!

[And her love of kids probably also helps Sheena, although she hasn't quite realized that yet.]

So...ummm...Are you feeling okay now?

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002 Summons ❈ Written ❈ Backdated to July 1st

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Oh, that is adorable! Sheena's eye icons all look mad...LOL

asdghk hehe, I'm lucky that Colette's is so versatile

Anger doesn't look right on Colette, though.

It's so true... determined with justice is the closest she gets

Yep. Sheena's jealous. :D

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