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[Backdated to the fifth because Rin is a speedy traveler and that's how I do]

[Maybe she doesn't quite realize the journal is recording yet, maybe she just can't help it. Either way the book records a soft, drawn-out hiss from Rin, and then a contented little noise. The page is damp, all that humidity, and yes, there's the soft sound of water splashing picked up from the surroundings too!]

Mm... nothing beats hotsprings after you've been traveling. [She sounds so relaxed.]

Anyway. I've been thinking lately. You know, about all these castle revelations and things... and people coming back from world changes... an idea I had a long time ago, actually. What if we're not actually the original people we think we are? Like, what if we're all copies. Like writing out one scroll on another, you know? So we, our original selves, are still at home doing our thing, not even missed, and besides that we're here.

[She actually sounds just really throaty and indolent as she says all this, not upset.] What if you didn't have a home to go to? What if your home wasn't yours, and you, the you that you reading this were copied from... what if they were still there? If they didn't even need you at home. You were just excess.

If you didn't have your job and duties to do at home, because you were already there. Do you think you'd join forces with them? Would you kill them and take their place? For some people it could be like freedom too. [A sigh.]

Also, wouldn't it be interesting to have a world change where it didn't go like normal, and all the humans were changed into not-humans instead of not-humans being changed into human beings?

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... We might never find out anyway. So it could all be just empty speculation anyhow.

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I'm still not convinced half those guys aren't talking out their ass.

Anyway, yeah. It's not, uh ... a thing anybody should ever have to deal with. Finding out they're clones.

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Well... I don't know. If they are clones, and they want to know, they deserve to... even if they don't want to know, if they are, that's what's real. But they're still their own person.

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That wouldn't make you question yourself, though? All the experiences from your past, everything you remember ... it wasn't really you doing it. It was the other guy, the "original" or whatever.

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But they still made me "me"... in a way. I didn't really do it, but it was like I did. So for something like that, believing almost makes it real.

[samson]

I don't know about that. Some things you're better off being ignorant about.

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I guess I'd rather know. If this is true, then there's not really a place to go home too.

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Then what do you live for?

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Something here? Making a better world here? Finding a new purpose?

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I guess. [he doesn't sound convinced!]

I don't know. It's hard to focus on anything but busywork when you can be thrown back at any time.

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[Or just recycled.]

Yeah. I know what you mean.