Fifty Second Sip

[mal_addict]

[Maladict had been thinking a lot since the little...family event. It had opened up a lot of old wounds, while at the same time parading things in front of her she always thought were 'silly'. Like getting married, she'd been dead against it, she'd even called Brock a fool for going through with the silly little ordeal. But now...

No. She pushed that thought aside, filing it away, to try and ignore it for a little while longer. Instead, she focussed on something far more prevalent. It had made her a teenager again. She remembered her teenage years as a thing full of fun and excitement. Of staying out late, playing chicken with the sunrise, to come home to her parents smiling proudly because their little girl had brought home dinner before bed. The sort of dinner that screamed.

It was very different to what she'd experienced in the reunion. Though the arguments with James and Helen were very much a mirror of her life later. When she'd picked up the ribbon. When, ultimately, she'd had enough of them trying to control her, to make her into someone she didn't want to be and had to run away to join the army to escape it all. She didn't appreciate having a reminder of that time. It even made her wonder if the way she'd acted towards her parents, her real parents, was as justified as she'd thought. Maybe they WERE just trying to make the best for her. And so, if a heavy sigh, she picks up the journal to dictate into it]

If you could relive any point in your life. Go try it all again, would you change anything, do you think? Would it give you a better insight into who you, yourself, are?

[Getting the opinions of the peanut gallery could sometimes be insightful. It was worth a try]

Comments

[unnaturalpause]

It would depend on one thing. If I were to do such a thing, would I have the memories I do now?

[It makes a lot of difference okay? He's not doing this to be difficult.]

[mal_addict]

[She considers this]

Yeah. Sure. Think of it as a chance to just sit and watch your own actions, if you like.

[inafadingcrown]

I think not. There is much that I regret, but without those mistakes I would not have learned. I would not be the woman I am, nor would I lead the life I do. [She's thought about this a lot.]

[mal_addict]

How would you feel just to watch it? You know, observe?

And spamming you because I can

[forgedinbattle]

Been there, done that- not as good of an idea as it sounds.

awww yis

[mal_addict]

Really? What happened for you?

Mal

[gevurah]

Some things, I guess. Mostly to do with other people.

Kate

[mal_addict]

Isn't it always? Turning back, seeing how we could treat other people differently.

[cheerupemoborg]

Yes. Without hesitation.

[mal_addict]

Without hesitation, impressive. You're very sure about that.

[imalwaysright]

[It's a good question, and not one that he really likes thinking about. What would have happened if he didn't drag Scott out into the woods that night? Some other random kid probably would have been bitten. And that kid wouldn't have had Stiles in their corner. (Not that Scott made a spectacular werewolf, but at least he had help.)

And then there was Derek. He can admit he doesn't like Derek, but he also doesn't want him dead. And if Stiles wasn't around, the dude might not have lived. Hell, he might not have even dealt with the Alpha at all. Then where would they be?

Probably ignorant to the entire werewolf mess around them. Would it be better to be ignorant?]

No, definitely not. No changes. [Even if some aspects aspects really suck, they could always be worse.]

[mal_addict]

Then you're lucky. To be so sure that all you've done in life was the right thing.

[perfectisnteasy]

[why are you asking him things that are so damned relevant, Maladict? WHY]

... Maybe.

It's hard to say. I can't change my own programming, though. So ... I'd probably just do it all again.

[he actually sounds kind of ... annoyed about that. really annoyed, actually.]

[mal_addict]

[BECAUSE SHE LIKES TO MAKE YOU PEOPLE THINK]

...Funny, I'd expect you of everyone here to be absolutely certain about it. Grander scheme of things, seeking perfection and all that.

/also spams you

[hard_talker]

[quietly] ... Yeah, I would. I dunno how much it'd change, but ... I know exactly what I'd do.

always cool

[mal_addict]

Really? Sounds like you've already given this some thought.

[lord_wizard]

There isn't very much I would like to relive, but what little there is, I would fear what else would change if I did - what good may have been undone even if the result was terrible.

[mal_addict]

...There is that, isn't there? It's, what do they call it? A domino effect.

[exanimatus]

A what-if question to the residents, hm? Having a bad day?

[/helping.]

[mal_addict]

[You are the most helpful, Zelman]

Just backlash from that wonderfully happy little time we had living in family togetherness.

[vampirize]

[Tesla is silent for a few moments. Usually, he would be flippant and just evade the topic to talk about less touchy things, but this question does make him pause. Of course there's a lot he would change. Not make a deal with Edison, for one. Maybe not be the naive optimistic scientist he was in a world which would just step all over him.]

...

Yeah, I would. Don't know if it would give me a better insight or anything, though.

[mal_addict]

[Maladict sighs, and there's a touch of annoyance in it too because stupid Nikola brings the other things to her mind. The things she's trying not to think about]

No. It probably wouldn't. But I'd still like to be able to go up to younger me and just...see if I really was being such an annoying pain in the neck.

[formercheerio]

I don't know. [ She knows a certain point. She knows exactly the moment. But it would change everything... ] If you'd asked me a few months before I got here I'd have said yes.

[mal_addict]

And your views have changed now?

dictated

[psych0p0mps]

not really
even changing something from back then wouldnt change anything
it would just create an offshoot timeline in which everybody died

forever!

[mal_addict]

...Well that's depressing.