paradisa | 048. [dictated, open to action]

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048. [dictated, open to action]

[The news of Fluttershy being gone was something he was still processing even now that he was back to being a human instead of a cat. She... couldn't really be gone right? And when he thinks back on how their last interactions went he feels an incredibly rare knot in his stomach.

Fluttershy who always looked after him.

Fluttershy who thought of him as a "hero".

Fluttershy who was his "friend".

Fluttershy who he always took for granted and ended up humiliating just before she left.

Fluttershy who he didn't get to apologize to.

But that's always how it went wasn't it? That's what happened to Dojima-

Doji... ma....

Adachi suddenly feels a sense of dread come over him. He'd been meaning to check up on Nanako before the castle decided to make him an animal instead but hadn't done so yet.

Now. You should do that now.

No. No you shouldn't.

No. Go now.

He finds himself unknowingly dashing to where her room should be, but no matter how much he was dreading it, nothing prepared him for the truth.

Nanako was gone too.

The one thing he had left connected to what he had lost.

The only one from his world left.

For a long time, Adachi doesn't know what to do... until he finally just resigns to pulling out his journal.]

S-Sorry to add to the pile of "so and so's gone home" that we've had lately but...

...Nanako Dojima's gone home. Back to her big bro and... [wince] father.

[muttering under his breath] So now it's just me...

[He's not sure how to feel about that? Shouldn't he be happy? But he's never been without at least one person (usually Nanako) from his world in this place. It's... a weird realization.

For anyone that comes by Nanako's (old) room, they'll find Adachi still staring at the door]

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Nanako?

[Well. That was that, then]

Great. Just wonderful.

Yeah.

At least she's where she belongs, I guess.

She was missing her father. [And her jackass 'big bro', but Crowley still hasn't forgiven him for the whole Eclipse business ]

Yeah. I don't blame her.

I miss him too.

[whoa wait that part he did not mean to say fuck fuck fuck ADACHI YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER THE MAN DON'T LET YOURSELF JUST SUBCONCIOUSLY SAY THINGS FOR CRYING OUT LOUD]

[Lucky for Adachi, he's found someone who doesn't care]

...Well. That sucks for you?

[Just going to go right ahead and assume you two were lovers now bro, yep]

[~~good you do that~~]

Oh uh... er...

Y-Y'know, forget I said anything.

...Awkwaaaard. [Yep. Totally doing it]

... Shit. People are dropping like fuckin' flies this week. ... I'm sorry.

They really are. It's like the castle's pruning week or something.

[he's not sure how to process the apology though.]

...It's fine.

Yeah ... and we just HAD one of those a month or so ago, too. Usually it waits a while before doing it again... You think we're in for another onslaught of fucked-up shit?

[that gets a slight grin out of Adachi. Just a slight one]

My question to you, my friend, is... when are we not getting an onslaught of fucked up shit?

[he laughs] Okay, okay, point. Fucked up shit of the people- and-or locale-changing variety. Izzat better, smartass?

[you get an amused little 'hmph' for the smartass comment mister.

But then Adachi actually gets kinda serious sounding again]

Maybe. I don't know, doesn't stuff normally get a little nuts when the fall starts? I remember all those leaves last year... and then the fairies... and then the...

["Magical Girl Incident"]

...other stuff.

Maybe? That was my first fall, so. I could always check back in the journals and see. I'd expect this place to pull all kinds of crazy shit for Halloween, though...

Last Halloween was just all those dressy outfits an weird girly bathrooms though wasn't it? It was my first Halloween too and I remember feeling underwhelmed...

Mine, too, honestly. I'd heard stuff about zombies and living decorations and vampires, before ... maybe it just ran outta steam last year.

Yeah.... I mean, not that I actually want to have to deal with monsters and zombies and all that shit. But at the same time, it seems like this place was slipping a little.

Maybe the true horror was supposed to be the incident with the guys in skirts.

[CRYING FOREVER]

What incident with the guys in skirts?

[he says it in a very "hey, I saw nothing, I know you like your dignity" tone]

...I'm glad she's going to home to her family, but I'm sorry you're left here.

Ah...

[ok really not sure how to respond to that fdkhjkl Adachi still doesn't understand when people are nice to him sometimes ; A;]

It's... not a big deal or anything. It's probably better this way.

[even if he can't describe this feeling in his chest]

That's what everyone says after their friends and family leave. Almost like if we don't say it out loud, we'll look like bad people.

But you will get to see her and her father when you go home, won't you?

[OH GOD LANA WHY I JUST MADE THE MOST STRAINED DYING ANIMAL NOISE TRYING TO WRITE THIS JBDJVDJBDHJFRI]

P... Probably not actually...

What? Why not?

[ And then she realizes it could be something terrible, which makes her want to know more, but then wow that's bad social etiquette. ]

I'm sorry, that's not my business.

Uh... haha, no it's okay.

Er... let's just say...

...there's no future for me back there. [there never really was]

[ Oh dear. That usually means the person is dead. B( ]

I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have even asked.

[ A pause for consideration. This sounds lame now given the context, but... ]

Next time you're in the city, why don't you stop by the restaurant for another Italian soda?

Um... all right. Sure. Thanks, I'd... like that a lot.

[he's in the city a lot too these days o w o]

Great. I'll keep an eye out for you. And if you stop by when I'm not around, just give the hostess your name and you'll be covered.

G-Got it. Thanks.

[Oh. There goes another friend.]

:33 < are you pawsitive?
:33 < i can check again if you want
:33 < maybe she just moved to a diffurent room

But if she did that the nameplate would still be at the old one, wouldn't it...?

[that's how it was when she moved in with her dad he thinks]

:33 < im not really sure about that
:33 < maybe she was able to take it with her to her new room
:33 < *ac frowns a bi

But she'd... say something by now... wouldn't she?

:33 < well what if shes on a loss where she cant say that?
:33 < i know its a stretch but
:33 < i dont want to think about the pawssibility of her being gone :CC

[man he wants to believe you right now Nepeta but...]

I guess that's possible but...

I don't know if I want to get my hopes up like that...

:33 < yeah
:33 < i know that f33ling

[he sighs]

It's a shitty feeling huh.

How've you been holding up? [he hasn't heard from you in forever gurl, he's starting to wonder if he should... start keeping better tabs :{]

:33 < i have b33n ok mostly
:33 < i decided to go on the expurrdition to k33p me distracted
:33 < and also hopefully find some neat things
:33 < its ok so far

That's good.

Are those things actually interesting? [he's never been interested in one and pays zero attention to them but hmmm...]

:33 < oh yes
:33 < when we actually arrive at some place interesting
:33 < to be honest there is a pawful lot of traveling and it is pretty boring
:33 < but i guess the end result is worth it you know?
:33 < but it is purrbably not fur the impatient or easily bored

Aw man, then it probably isn't my thing after all.

I'm one of those impatient guys who gets easily bored, haha.

:33 < yeah you are better off just waiting fur us to get back
:33 < or live vicariously through the journal
:33 < which is ok beclaws some people have to stay behind and man the fort

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048. [dictated, open to action]

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