paradisa | [Four - Right Through The Eye

[Katniss has finished her morning exercises on the range - clearing her head and her heart as she pulls the journal towards her. Time to address ... the nightmares. Personal ... things. She sighed, scrubbed a hand over her face, before she started to write furiously.]

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[Bluntly written.] That was my home, that was my childhood, that was my coming of age. It's gone now, just so you know. We ended it in a rebellion to end all rebellions.

[A pause, and a quieter..] I'm sorry what you saw of me there. Yes, Jim, even you.

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I won't say anything if you don't want me to. It's your business.

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Hey, lion. [An embarrassed pause.] I caught some rabbits, the other day. You're welcome to them.

And. Thanks. For checking on me.

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Thanks for staying with me. And the present. And ... stuff.

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[Perhaps the hardest thing she's ever written, but she'll write it.]

I would have traded places with you in the Capital in a heartbeat. You never should suffer. Never. You're the light ... you're the light in my world. [She's embarrassed, pushing her hair out of her face.] You've always given me hope. You're ... beautiful, and you only deserve beautiful things.

And yes, my words are all real. All true.

[Her pen pauses, then she continues.] Anything else I say on this, I say face to face, heart to heart.

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[And now, for something a little more public.]

Arya, I, and a few others are going for a hike. Anyone need any meat or herbs?

[Completely bland here, yep yep.]