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arya stark

ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴᴅ sʟᴇᴇᴘ ᴇsᴄᴀᴘᴇ ᴍᴇ

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I feel like I'm going mad. I keep forgetting things. This morning I woke up and I couldn't remember your voice. [ her voice breaks. ] I kept trying, but it was gone. I couldn't remember it at all. I was really scared. I thought I was going to forget you completely. I don't want to forget. If I forget… [ she trails off. quieter, she continues. ] When will you come, Father? We need you here.

[ A pause as she tries to add some semblance of happiness to her voice. ] I'm doing my prayers every night, Father. I'm working. I earn mine own coin now. And I've got really good with Needle. When you get here, I'll show you. I'll make you proud, I promise.

I wish you were here.

ᴅɪᴄᴛᴀᴛᴇᴅ
How normal is forgetting?

ᴀʟʟᴇɴ ᴡᴀʟᴋᴇʀ
[ considering how curt and frantic she had been, she figures she owes him an apology. ]

Um, I'm sorry. For my behavior that night. And...thank you.

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Everyone is always sorry.

Would you prefer I was malicious about it? I have no say in what the castle chooses.

I didn't say that.

I know not what you want from me.

That's because you don't know anything about me!

And you think you know me? All we have ever done is argue. I have not seen you in two years since before coming here. What has changed with you? You are a still a child. [And part of Sansa hates her for it. She doesn't know what happened to Arya the day her father died, that she lost her childhood then, too. All she knows is the loss of her own childhood.]

We argue because you don't listen! You wouldn't even talk to me before! I know what you think of me and you're wrong! I'm not a child! Children don't kill and I have!

If I don't listen then you must be deaf. You're brash, and you're too quick to act. Whatever you have done, it still makes you a child for you think it does not. What consequences have you dealt with? Have you even thought of them?

I'm going to die when I go back, Sansa!

You don't know that, and I don't believe it!

I was shoved to a wall and had a knife thrown at me! The last thing I remember is it going to my face! What do you think? No one's going to save me! I know the consequences of my actions. While you were in the Keep, I was hiding from goldcloaks and thieves in Flea Bottom! If I was found, I'd be taken to the queen or killed. When I saw Father... Doesn't matter anymore. I was found.

Then you'll fight them. That's what you do. You got away, Arya. It took me two years to get out, and you think I sat idly in my room? Do you want to know what Joffrey did to me, what he wanted to do to me?

Think what you will, Arya, but you know nothing of what I have been made to do.

And you know nothing of what I've had to do!

[ Slam journal. ]

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