starhipped: graphitiaru (♰ forever being lied to)
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[It'd been just over a day since she'd woken up in her room, her entire body heavy and weak from what she had to estimate a week of non-stop sleep. Her journal had been open to an entry a week before and while things had continued on in her absence, the pages hadn't flipped. She'd barely glanced at it before attempting to pick herself up and put together the pieces of the remainder of her life in this place.

She hadn't been herself lately.

It had finally occurred to her what was so terribly wrong with this place. When she was finally alone, without Cardinal Sforza or Father Tres to rely on, when it was just her, there was something lacking. Every time she knelt in the chapel, every time she closed out the rest of her surroundings to give herself to God .. there was nothing. The warmth, the calmness, the feeling of protection and peace from prayer - the guidance - it was all gone.

She felt nothing except abandonment. Fear. Loss. Confusion. There was no acceptance, no path laid clear to her, no divine communion. Just terrified struggling day after day to find meaning, reason and hope in a hopeless situation, in a place where she might never escape.

And she was alone.

Just that had her on her knees for hours at a time in the chapel, praying fervently, rocking, sometimes crying, often times her eyes closed, hoping. Perhaps it would come back to her. Perhaps she would see again.

So caught up is she in this quest for spiritual sight that she doesn't notice her journal open on the floor, writing down a description of her actions, eloquently and damningly.]


[ooc: Angsty post is angsty. But Esther seems to be on the fringe of discovering (though she has no idea) what her castle loss is, not to mention all her friends are gone and she doesn't have the self-esteem to realize she has more friends than those from her world.]
starhipped: woolfred (pic#2411183)
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A-Ah! Hi, everyone..!

[Despite all of the craziness of everyone running around sick, or finding strange things, Esther seems mostly ok! She's more worried than anything else, worried about all of the other people in the castle who seemed to be suffering. Surely there had to be something she could do more than just watch everyone else!

Still, she's not entirely sure what that thing is..]


I hope .. people are starting to feel better. And if you're not, I was just wondering.. I don't really have anything to do during the day, after the chapel is all cleaned up, so I thought that perhaps--

[She's kind of fumbling here.]

If you wanted.. if it wouldn't be too much of an invasion of privacy... I would be happy to try and help out, if people needed some help. Or just someone to talk to, or to take care of them while they're ill? Nothing is worse than being sick.. and alone..
starhipped: graphitiaru (♱ what kind of bullshit is this)
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[If any other campers happen to be heading down towards the canoeing area, they might notice a rather strange thing going on! A girl, who might be recognized as part of Aphrodite's cabin, is currently hanging out on the dock, holding an oar and studying the canoe with a mix of fear and dread. After all, nuns weren't exactly cut out to swim, were they?]

This .. is silly. After all, it's just a floating piece of wood...

[It seems like she's trying to give herself a pep talk.]

But maybe it's because it's just a big piece of wood and I can't exactly swim--

[Oh! There she goes trying to talk herself out of it!]

But I said I would take this class, so even if it kills me... Besides, I don't really want to be trying to figure out a weapon right now either..

[Do you want to put her out of her misery and help her out? Or maybe just stop by and lend her moral support or some directions? Esther looks like one heck of an unhappy camper, at the moment!]
starhipped: graphitiaru (pic#2410878)
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[If you happen to wander by the kitchens at some point, you'll notice that there is a lot of cooking currently going on and some people gathered! It looks like someone has decided to throw a party of sorts for everyone in Paradisa, because on the journal the following message will appear:]

Hello, everyone!
I know I spoke to many of you a few weeks ago about all getting together and having a dinner party!
Well, I was thinking that having it tonight would be awesome, if you aren't all busy! I'll be in the kitchens, working on preparing food if others want to join me.

Once all the food is ready, we can move outside and eat!
This invitation is open to everyone, not just the people I spoke to, so please try and stop by!

Sister Esther Blanchett


[Oh! That sounds kind of fun, right? And if you decide to go, you'll probably be greeted by a cheerful nun (who is much happier now that her superior has safely been returned to the castle), and get to eat lots of good food that you might not be able to wish for on your own!]

[ooc: The actual banquet post, only a few days late! Which is good, for me. Like I said, even if your character didn't IC comment to her first post, please still attend! There will be mingling posts below for both the preparation before the banquet, during and the clean up afterwards .. feel free to have your character show up at any time!]
starhipped: papillondejade (pic#2410943)
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[Esther actually seems kind of sad and not her normal, cheery self!]

I guess.. people have been saying the children have all gone...

[Oh? Is that it? It's easier to miss something that you never had! Esther, while she did help others out with childcare cough, Father Tres, was not given a child of her own! On one hand, that was probably a good thing - who would it have looked like? She didn't have a partner in Paradisa. On the other, it made her kind of sad to see the tots go.]

I hope people aren't too sad over their departure. After all, it had to happen at some point! Still, they were cute...

[Sniff!

Looks like the one who is upset is Esther! But she pulls herself together quickly. After all, she had a mission in this broadcast!]


I was thinking .. perhaps one night some people would like to get together and make dinner? Some of you may be used to eating in groups and it can be lonely here, if you don't have someone to eat with. We could make a night out of it, making dinner and eating together, even having dessert!

A-Ah.. if people are interested..
starhipped: 13ofnothing (pic#2410946)
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Things have been very busy.. the last few weeks seem to be a blur!

[For some reason, it seems like she can't really remember all that went on in her life the last few weeks lolhiatus. Still! It was unpleasant that she can remember, despite her missing home terribly and a certain derpy priest. Whatever the fairy tale things going on were, she wasn't involved. And the lobsters disappeared!

Still, she wants to stay in touch with others!]


The season has changed, mostly. The flowers are starting to bloom even more than they did in spring - this place is so green, it's starting to remind me of Rome in the summer.

[Just an observation. She looks uncertain, almost as though talking about home is a guilty pleasure.]

I was wondering .. how everyone is, after that last event that the castle threw at us.
starhipped: graphitiaru (♱ what kind of bullshit is this)
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I know this might be beating a dead horse but ...

[Her voice is kind of panicked. All she'd wanted to do was go down to the kitchen and fix herself a snack! She'd been spending too much time in her room, especially since the Father had been -- ... no. It was best not to dwell on that now. There were bigger problems. Problems that happened to be red and dancing in the lobby. Everyone else had been talking about them too.]

The lobsters in the lobby - is this a normal occurrence? Something that the castle does to the residents often?

[Because honestly, how rude! She'd been assailed just trying to cross it by the dancing things! Lobsters that big .. they didn't exist and they sure didn't dance! What kind of magic was this?]

Also .. when are they going to leave?

[filtered to any member of the clergy] )
starhipped: (♱ breathe me a little song)
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Ash Wednesday has passed and while .. we may be here, perhaps it would be appropriate for some to celebrate Lent? I certainly won't require anyone to fast or take it to an extreme that you aren't comfortable with, but perhaps it's something we can all celebrate together!

If .. people are interested, write me back! I'd be happy to supervise any kind of service, even though I'm just a nun!

[ filter to Father Abel, Father Tres, and Her Eminence ]

I hope .. this isn't too forward.

[ ooc: This is essentially going to serve as a set up for Esther discovering what her loss (prayer) is. ]
starhipped: woolfred (pic#2411180)
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[ She doesn’t believe in this nonsense. How could she? Something like .. writing into a journal was so innocuous – it couldn’t be a means of communication. It certainly didn’t make any sense! But … on that train of thought; what about this place made sense? She was in a huge castle that somehow knew her name. Right.

After observing for a few days, this seemed like the best way to communicate with others in the castle.]


My name is Esther Blanchett.

[She can’t help it, she’s speaking under her breath as she pens the words carefully into the book. Her handwriting is neat, though a little cramped. Will someone answer back?]

I’d like to know where I am and under whose authority I am being held here. If possible I would like to be returned to Londinium as soon as possible. It is very important that I am returned home.

[There! Not too accusatory, but definitely not mild, either. Settling back in her chair, she stared at the book in front of her, willing words to appear. She would figure this out. And she would go home. It was all a matter of time.]

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