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Daddy, can we play more?

Give Daddy a few minutes to finish in the journal and we can play all you want, Carter.

Nothing quite like this week to give a good chance to relax after everything that's happened recently. Or at least, giv3e you stress in entirely different wants, in the form of parenthood.

Any other single parents that want a playmate for their kid and a possible break? Let me know. Without his mother, Carter can be a handful, though it's my second time alone with him.

Though... It's a good reminder of a friend that's gone now.

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Who was she?

Not to pry or anything, just curious.

She was a Spartan that's not here anymore. Her name was Kat... A member of Noble Team that died on Reach.

We were close for a while. The castle loved throwing us together.

Like giving you two a kid...

Well, glad you have something good to remember her by.

Until the end of the week. Has anyone explained to you how the parenthood in this works?

But I know he'll be safe when he leaves. There's another version of me and her where the kids came from.

York explained some. I didn't really know what happens to the kids after.

So... then there's a place where you two are still together? Or you know, whatever you were like here.

Something like it. He recognized me as Daddy and her as his mother, so that says something.

And I saw the pictures.

Pictures?

There were pictures in his room of a happy kid and a family. I'm his father there, even if I haven't experienced it.

Huh.

[He's not sure if that's comforting or not. The idea that there's some parallel world where he's living a life that doesn't totally suck. Where he has a kid.]

It's comforting to know he doesn't just vanish into nothing...

Yeah... I guess it is.

[Someone might as well be happy right. And ok, he might be getting just a little fond of the kid.]

When your kid has shown up multiple times? Trust me, it does help. Maybe you'll be lucky enough to get that chance.

Well, lucky or unlucky. Depends on how you feel about the place.

Edited 2013-05-30 01:59 (UTC)

Depends on the day.

[Is the castle driving everyone psycho? He'll pass.]

Hey, it's better than prison. Can you deny that?

What kind of torture are they using in prison these days?

[He means for it to sound like a joke but there's a bitter edge to it. He wishes Pixy had been able to kill him. A week of oblivion over what he experienced on the Event Horizon, no contest.]

I don't do well in enclosed places, Church.

And I don't know yet what will happen beyond the fact that I'm going there. And considering what the project did? They won't be nice...

So drop it.

Edited 2013-06-06 20:34 (UTC)

I didn't mean it like... oh fuck it, it doesn't matter.

[He'd meant that this place had recently tortured the ever loving shit out of a lot of the residents. He never wants to go through anything like that again. He'd rather die for real than go through that again.]

Have a great time with your son.

[Nothing snide about that, that was genuine.]

[She doesn't say anything other than a quiet, reverent,] Noble Two.

Of course.

You remember her?

Of course I do. It would be hard to forget her.

She really was an amazing person. I was lucky to meet her here.

You still have Carter.

For a week, I do.

Something tells me you'd rather have him year-round. [York's the same and while he and Wash weren't anywhere near identical, personality-wise, wanting kids and a future wasn't exactly unique to any one person.]

Maybe a little. Never thought of myself as parent material... Not after everything. The castle proved me wrong.

It's not a bad thing.

[Carolina still has her doubts that any of them are really good parent material, but she won't voice them right now.] The Castle proving you wrong or being a parent.

A little of both, Carolina.

I'm not doing bad at any rate. Carter is happy.

It's a step in the right direction, at least. [Her tone is dry, but there's a hint of humor edging in slowly.]

For both me and the castle.

He's happy. I'm happy. And for a while? I get to pretend I''m normal. [Even if we both know the truth.]

[Carolina snorts at the mention of "normal." Why everyone kept trying to be normal was beyond her, but it could very well be a part of why they all betrayed her.

Well Wash hadn't, but... no, she would be lumping Wash in with York in the traitor category for now.]

And you want normal.

For a little while. This normal is better than castle normal at any rate... And I'm getting what I'll never have otherwise. There is nothing wrong with taking a break before you shatter.

If you need a break, you're weak. [The words come out of her before she can stop them.]

[There's oddly no anger.] No. If you need a break? You're human. Humans try, but we still fall if we push too hard.

Edited 2013-06-25 22:17 (UTC)

[She's not sure what to expect of the lack of anger in his voice.] There isn't such a thing as pushing too hard.

[Wash has grown a lot. He doesn't need anger] There is. And you do have a tendency toward it.

[It's actually a little odd to not hear the anger she'd heard for months when she'd first arrived here. She pauses for a moment before hissing back,] No, I don't.

You do. Trust me.

And calm down. I'm not an enemy.

No. I don't. [And wow is she getting defensive about this.]

I wasn't saying that you trust me. I was requesting that you trust me.

[Part of her is ready to get defensive again, but when she pauses to think about it for two seconds, she at least realizes she has nothing to distrust him for. Other than being a friend of York's.]

Did that ever work for you. Someone asking you to trust them.

Yes, it has, Carolina. Not much at Freelancer... But this place has taught me different.

This place isn't any different from Freelancer. [Well minus everything being a giant clusterfuck.]

I promise you, it really is.

No, it isn't. Everyone here is waiting to stab you in the back or leave you to die.

Edited (Whoops it's early.) 2013-07-30 11:22 (UTC)

Going home jaded you.

Edited 2013-07-30 22:20 (UTC)

No, I figured out things that I should have known before.

You should have known... But it's not your fault you didn't know.

What's your point. [More anger curls through her words.]

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