The Thirty-Ninth Day (backdated to a few days ago - right after finding out that Ted left)

[stalkershiki]

 [Shiki opens up the journal and her mouth, preparing to say something.

And then she closes them both.

A few minutes she opens the journal again... just to close it again two seconds later.

Another few minutes later, she does the same thing yet again.

Finally, she manages to speak into the journal, not bothering to filter in the slightest.]

...You'd think, after being left behind in the castle as much as I have, I'd have gotten used to it by now. That would be the smart thing to do, wouldn't it?

[And now, for the first time in a long, long time, she's going to sink into a feeling of self hatred, and jealousy of those who can keep it together, those who are "smart" enough to learn how to deal with losing friends to the castle, and just... everyone who isn't her.]

Comments

Gold

[stalkershiki]

Not... really this time? I mean, I feel like it might just kind of... rub it in, you know?

Shiki

[billiardsplz]

Gotcha. But I'm always here to talk.

Gold

[stalkershiki]

I... I appreciate it. But, by this point... I just don't know what there is to talk about. He was here, and a really, really good friend of mine, and now he's gone, and I miss him. That's it.

Shiki forever

[billiardsplz]

We can start with that.

Gold forever

[stalkershiki]

What do you mean? It's not really a start... it's an all.

[billiardsplz]

How about how a really, really good friend of yours wouldn't want you to mope around and feel so alone?

[stalkershiki]

And I won't forever. But I still want my sadness now.

[billiardsplz]

Alright. But if you ever need to talk, I'm here.

[stalkershiki]

I... thank you. I appreciate it, Gold.