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[ardor]

[Kallen's on the roof, watching people down below as she eats her lunch. Mid sandwich bite, something occurs to her, so she opens the journal and speaks into it with a casual tone.]

I just realized that my two year mark in this place was a few days ago. It's weird to think that much time's gone by already, but things seem to go by either quickly or slowly here. I still haven't found a happy medium, if one exists. Maybe I'm fooling myself with that.

[She exhales and takes another bite of sandwich before pausing to filter.]

[People with a 2+ year stay]
Do you think it gets harder or easier as time goes on?
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((ooc: backdated to around noon. filter time does not have to be consecutive))

Comments

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[waterproofed]

Hard to say. I think it depends more on you and your outlook, you know?

SAME FOREVER

[ardor]

What about your personal experience?

[waterproofed]

Mine's kinda unusual. I was here a year, left, came back a week later and stayed another year. But I remember being here for all two of them.

[ardor]

That is weird. Did you go home or something?

Dat filter forever

[onlyanapple]

That depends entirely on how you can cope with regularly having people just leave on you.

That is to say, you either learn to make it easier for yourself or you make it harder in the long run.

yes

[ardor]

How's it going for you?

[onlyanapple]

[He's lost a lot of people. A lot of lovers. It's not been fun]

I'm immortal, so a few years here is barely a blink of an eye. I've had longer naps.

Still...this place does weird things to you.

[ardor]

Lucky you. [Her tone's dry, but not sharp.]

No kidding. We're not even mentioning the losses.

Dictated;

[wilder]

Happy...anniversary?

Is that what you say for this? I have no idea.

Dictated;

[ardor]

I don't know either. People here should probably figure that out at some point.

Dictated;

[wilder]

No kidding. People could probably make a killing in anniversary presents or something.

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[gottaknockhard]

[That's a depressing way to find out how long you've been here. And he tries so hard not to pay attention.]

Easier the less you think about it.

filter;

[ardor]

That's also the easy way out.

filter;

[gottaknockhard]

Up to you which way you'd rather go.

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[encryptedlock]

I never thought it was very hard to begin with. It's better than home by a long shot, and I'm not dead. Two things in its favor.

It's rough when everyone I know ends up leaving on me, though.

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[ardor]

It's really a personal experience, then, huh?

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[encryptedlock]

Just like anywhere else. Life is what you make of it.

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[cloakand_danger]

...Both, in different ways. The longer we stay here...the more we lose our grip on home. The more Paradisa becomes home, whether we like it or not. I've yet to decide whether that's a good or bad thing.

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[ardor]

I-- I don't know either. The thought's pretty unnerving, though.

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[payback]

I have no idea...

Rin;

[ardor]

How're you doing?

Kallen;

[payback]

I'm okay.

I think some things get harder, and some things get easier, and when you realize things get easy they get hard again. Take realizing you don't miss some things about home so much, that just makes you homesick in a new kind of way.

[Filter forever]

[ino]

Both, honestly.

[ardor]

That's what it looks like.

[ino]

In the end, it's all how you choose to take it. It can really get you down, if you let it.