paradisa | 3 Lanterns; Dictated

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3 Lanterns; Dictated

That was the longest and worst sleep I've ever had... And I guess it wasn't just me, from what people have been writing. It gave me some things to think about. [She's kept somewhat quiet since waking up.] I kind of wish it hadn't, but I'm kind of happy, at the same time. I have a decision to make now.

But, uh... Maybe I should talk about something else. [Rather than go into her missing towels. What's that about?] How about this Halloween I keep hearing about? Does anyone want me to make them a costume for that?

Are you guys okay?

I'm really sorry you had to go through all that. If you did. I'm confused.

I get it now.

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[There's something comforting, in someone finally agreeing with him over this. For too long people have told him it wasn't so bad, or that he could have been worse. That he wasn't REALLY what he thought it was. It's a relief, to have his thoughts acknowledged as truth for a change]

I do. And if you think I don't or not doesn't matter. I've already spoken to someone from my future. I do get left alone. For fifty years, I'm alone.

[He's quiet again, then. Of course he had. The earth was dead, there was nothing he could do. And the final seed had come to this place with him]

...I can't do it myself. That's not how it works.

Well, change that! You shouldn't be left alone! It's just... It's wrong! Could you not be stubborn, for just once?

...What do you mean, that's not how it works?

Nope, sorry. I'm stubborn through and through. Especially about this.

[He circles one of the unless-es that's appearing on his journal page] I have to wait for someone to care enough to change things. Someone who isn't me.

That doesn't make sense, though. You care, or you wouldn't be stubborn about it -- You wouldn't be choosing to be alone for so long, when some of us don't have a choice!

[He realises he's probably trodden into uncharted waters here. Personal-Rapunsel-waters]

...Some of us chose to live that life because it's what we deserve. Besides, it's already set in stone. It's going to happen regardless.

[A pause] You don't have a choice?

That's not fair, though.

...No. Not for a long time.

Sometimes life just isn't fair.

...I'm sorry. You shouldn't be trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Is there any way at all for you to get out?

...I don't have to like it, though.

[A pause.]

Thank you. And... Yes, sort of. I did leave, but... I'm not sure I can stay away. I want to, but--

I don't know. I just want to stay here.