Fifty Seventh Sip

[mal_addict]

[Filtered to those who experienced her nightmare]

...This is a long time coming, I know, and I'm [She pauses here, sincerity isn't exactly her strong suit] well, I'm sorry. About the apology itself being late, and for what happened within it. Sort of a double-apology if you will. I've been rather distracted trying to keep sane up until now.

Anyway. I wish I could tell you none of it was real, that it was all a figment of my imagination, but it wasn't. I was that person, a few years ago. I would have killed any one of you and really, truly enjoyed doing it.

...But I'm not that person any more. Or at least...I'm trying not to be. I gave up blood for a reason, after all. I have no desire to go back to that.

I'm really not good at this apologising playing nice thing, so let's just leave it at that before things get awkward, shall we?

Comments

[rogueofheart]

[It's nice to finally have some clarification. Still, Nepeta's not sure what to say in response aside from]

:33 < apology accepted

[mal_addict]

[She's felt guilty about you little cat girl. You're one of the few kids in existence she actually LIKES]

Thank you.

...How're you holding up, in general?

[rogueofheart]

:33 < i am ok
:33 < are you?

[mal_addict]

I'm...

I'm better than I was. Glad to hear you;re doing okay.

[rogueofheart]

:33 < i am glad youre ok too

[As much as Mal would like this to not be awkward, Nepeta's not so sure she where to go with this next. She likes her, she really does, but... Death's a very touchy topic for her.]

[mal_addict]

[Poor Nepeta, Mal's not sure how to deal with this, either. She kind of knew there would be a lot of...awkwardness afterwards. There always is

So she lapses into silence. Best awkward vampire yep]

[rogueofheart]

:33 < so i will s33 you around

[Yeah, this is not getting any better.]

[mal_addict]

...Yeah. Guess I will.

[Nope, this is terrible]

[chocoponying]

Don't sweat it.

[mal_addict]

[Oh, it's that guy...the one she murdered without even knowing who he was]

...Yeah, I think I will regardless.

[chocoponying]

[Why would anyone ask the name of the person they are going to end up killing anyway?]

That's up to you.

[mal_addict]

...

Anyway. The name's Maladict. [Because she might as well start somewhere]

[chocoponying]

Yeah, I remember... Sort of. [Because there used to be an 'a' somewhere... Or did he just dream it? ... D'uh...]

I'm Cloud.

[mal_addict]

[Totally dreamed it. Not a fake name or anything this, nope]

...Interesting name. I'm sorry we couldn't meet under better circumstances.

[chocoponying]

Yeah... I guess. And I said it already, don't worry about it.

[Ah... He might as well ask...]

Are you better now?

[mal_addict]

I am. I've got a grip on...everything again.

[chocoponying]

Good.

[mal_addict]

Hopefully, baring any castle based... ridiculousness, it won't happen again.

[chocoponying]

At least I'll know what to expect.

[mal_addict]

You have my permission to stake me in the heart, should it happen again.


...It doesn't kill me for good, but it'll solve the problem until someone can find me coffee.

[chocoponying]

... Coffee?

[mal_addict]

Yeah. That's what I substitute for blood. It's how I can survive without drinking the red stuff any more.

[chocoponying]

[Seriously...?]

Okay... But I'm not staking you in the heart...

[mal_addict]

[She gives a sigh]

Suppose I was hoping for too much there. It's so hard to find someone who will nowadays.

[chocoponying]

... you really want me to?

[mal_addict]

It's not permanent for my species. A drop of blood on the ashes brings us right back. It's the only way you can stop us.

[chocoponying]

... [A pause.]

Alright then.

[mal_addict]

[She pauses here. She very rarely has luck with this, so it's a surprise]

...You'll help?

[chocoponying]

Yeah, I will. So, try not to nuts again. [Kettle calling pot.]

[mal_addict]

[That gets a soft chuckle] Trust me, I'll try my best.

And thank you.

gah, sorry about the stupid mistake, didn't notice till now orz

[chocoponying]

No need to thank me yet.

[Another pause. He's been wanting to ask his a while ago.] Are you... that chick who wanted to know things about the bird?

dgghdg it's ok I didn't notice AT ALL

[mal_addict]

...That'd be me. Looking out for James, more than anything.

[chocoponying]

Okay... [Running out of things to say...]

See you around?

[mal_addict]

[Best awkward conversation ever]

No doubt you will.

[psych0p0mps]

[oh wow. and here Aradia just thought it was a subconscious construction, a fear of becoming that... but she's already been that? it's a little shocking to realize.

... then again, she's had phases like that herself, so...]

i understand
but youre trying to be good now and thats the important thing
dont you think?

[mal_addict]

I'd really hope so. You can't change the past, but you can at least try to make up for it a little.

[psych0p0mps]

exactly
and to live a life you can be proud of with no regrets :)
or no additional regrets anyway

[mal_addict]

Yeah. I think I have more than enough regrets as it is, I don't need to add to them.

[psych0p0mps]

i hope youre not adding the dream onto the list
that would be silly

[mal_addict]

They're probably a smaller one.

[psych0p0mps]

yeah but you couldnt control what you dream about
or whether anybody else was involved

[mal_addict]

No, but it was still my past. And had my life been different, I would have been like that here.

[psych0p0mps]

but youre not like that here!
see theres no point regretting things that didnt actually happen :)

[mal_addict]

They did happen back home, though. Just with different people.