Fifty Seventh Sip

[mal_addict]

[Filtered to those who experienced her nightmare]

...This is a long time coming, I know, and I'm [She pauses here, sincerity isn't exactly her strong suit] well, I'm sorry. About the apology itself being late, and for what happened within it. Sort of a double-apology if you will. I've been rather distracted trying to keep sane up until now.

Anyway. I wish I could tell you none of it was real, that it was all a figment of my imagination, but it wasn't. I was that person, a few years ago. I would have killed any one of you and really, truly enjoyed doing it.

...But I'm not that person any more. Or at least...I'm trying not to be. I gave up blood for a reason, after all. I have no desire to go back to that.

I'm really not good at this apologising playing nice thing, so let's just leave it at that before things get awkward, shall we?

Comments

[mal_addict]

They're probably a smaller one.

[psych0p0mps]

yeah but you couldnt control what you dream about
or whether anybody else was involved

[mal_addict]

No, but it was still my past. And had my life been different, I would have been like that here.

[psych0p0mps]

but youre not like that here!
see theres no point regretting things that didnt actually happen :)

[mal_addict]

They did happen back home, though. Just with different people.